@allkindsatrash
im really feelin it,,, imagine people caring like whhaaa... my friends ignore my problems and when i try to talk to them about it,,, they post memes and dont give a shit
@magu_maguu sorry for never responding,,,, it makes me happy to see someone say that... its been a long time since someone said that in less of a "i feel obligated" and more of a "i genuinely care" way... thank you for being such a good person
if i had to watch my father go to jail, and had to listen to my sister hating on my existence, and listen to my mum talk about how much she wants to die, and go through my brother sexualy harassing me, and watch as my other sister falls farther and farther into bad life styles that put her and her daughter at risk, and learn to live without trust, and learn to feel like death is nothing to cry about, and loose that sense of empathy, and to watch ny closest friends cut deeper every day, and to see those scars and fresh cuts, i feel like i have a right to be depressed. every day i fight the urge to find the sharpest object in my house and use it to show myself real pain, use it to feel like im getting what i deserve.
@allkindsatrash and sometimes i think "there is no reason, your worries are pointless" but with anxiety telling me that im not wanted and that all i do is ruin things, i cant help but ignore those thoughts and go deeper into the hole. for someone to tell me i cant, for someone to throw me into a category of liars and over dramatics because of the mental state i did not ask for goes beyond inappropriate, beyond offensive. i never asked for that car crash, the pedophile father, the suicidal mother, the horny brother, the druggie sister, none of it did i ask for. but its what i got, and it didn't put me in a good place. MY AGE DOESN'T FUCKING MATTER, IVE BEEN THROUGH SHIT, i joke saying i have a throne waiting for me in hell because i feel like thats what im living through. you think i pretend to hate myself? you think i pretend to cry my eyes out almost every day? you think im joking about the fact that its so FUCKING hard to hold onto life a little longer? you think its a joke when i say that i dont think ill make it to 19? you really think that this isnt real? you have no idea how much i have hidden from people, i hate the person i am. i used to be a nice, hopeful, confident girl, but now i cant stand myself, i hate interacing, and i never think about when i have a family of my own. i am a heartless human who wishes that she where never born, just so she could avoid being more of a bother the everyone she encounters
Raise your hand if your glad Yang Hyunsuk is stepping down like, hyunsuk has done okay but his methods are kinda trash and all the scandals are being placed on him. I think the BlackPink stuff affected it as well tho, not just the drug and sex scandals.
Chapter one is out, plz check it out...
Also on a completely different note, I read this fic that was ot9 and I need to find more... Someone help me find more ot9 fics... Like please,,,
hey fren
The prologue is officially publish, please check out "project seungjin" I finished chapter three so I hope I can stay consistent with updates
So here's the elypsis of the new book: Even as they watched Changlix start dating, minsung getting married, and woochan marrying and adopting a child, they didn't realize how hard they fell for each other. Not even after they seemed to suddenly not like the kids at school, being less romantic or flirty like usual, they didn't notice. Now the rest of XRACHA wants to make them realize finally how much they love each other. Organizing a special group chat under the name "Project Seungjin".
I think it'll only be a couple days, I'm working on the 3rd chapter and it should be done soon. So when I finish that I'll publish the prologue and hopefully stay consistent with updates.
I'm just gonna say it, I made a story, it won't be published till I have the third chapter done, so I can hopefully keep up with updates, but it's a seungjin, skz, fic. It's gonna have some text stuff but it's basically like, after the others happy ending seungjin still have yet to realize their feelings so the rest of the members try to help them realize
Hello I hope you’re doing well! I have a stray kids story and I was wondering if you have time if you could check it out please? Enjoy the rest of your day/ evening ❤️
