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Twenty-One - Renee

Twenty-One - Renee

I want to tell him everything, I want a fresh start. At least I want him to stay in my life. He makes me feel the adventure in life and I want to hold on to that, hold on to him. I sigh and start speaking. Once I do, his eyes never leave me. "Let me start from the beginning," He nods, "Promise me you won't interrupt until I finish, because I really want to tell you everything and if you do, I am going to have to start all over again and that would make us feel irritated-" I say, but he grabs hold onto my shoulders: "Look, I want to know everything too, so I promise I won't interrupt."

I start at how my mother called me, which resulted in me leaving the party. His mouth circles an 'O' I am pretty sure he's thinking 'Ah, that makes so much more sense,' but as I go through the first conversation I had with my mother, he took into consideration how my mother knows about him. His eyes start from surprised to concern. My hands' fiddle with themselves, as my eyes are staring at the avocado eyes of his. He notices my hands and takes my own onto his. My cheeks turn into a rose pink as my eyes widen and soften at his touch. He's following the events, as I take a turn on the cafe night, he still allows me to speak. He allows me to feel.

"My heart ached every time I said something I didn't want to say," My eyes fell. I don't want to see his expression. "I felt so guilty, I still do- it's like I regret it and-" My voice starts to break. I didn't think he made me feel so many things at the same time. I gather my voice back and it sounds good as new, "It all fell into place when I told my mother about the cafe night, and when she thoroughly explained- I realized that I took it the wrong way. I haven't been putting my feelings first, I have been thinking about your career, like what if I am a distraction to you?" I say, feeling more and more weightless the more I speak.

When I glance back at his face, his look softens more and more I speak out. He makes me feel at ease. "So I thought if I avoided you, maybe things would be easier. Who was I kidding, it only became worse, luckily I didn't get it to my head. Jasmine was a lifesaver and gave me your number-" As soon as I told him how I had caught hold of his number, he smiled. This makes me smile as I finish "I can't believe so much has happened in so many days, and I want you to know that I care about you, and I don't want to be a distraction. I want to be a part of you, just like you're a part of me." I say as I can't help but take him in my arms.

My head rests on his chest, as I hear his heartbeat. He speaks in my hair, "Renee," and it makes me chuckle. "I want to see your face," He says, making my heart skip a beat. His hands hold my arms, as he says "You are not a distraction and not going to be one. You are someone I am inspired by, someone that I want to protect and love loudly. So don't even let that thought enter your head alright?" I nod, a smile tugging at my lips. "You didn't have to go through that much, I was so worried. You got me head over heels for you Renee," He confesses, as we both giggle like children.

"Shall we start over?" I ask, still blushing at his little confession. "I would love that," He says, feeling great. I like how he's still holding my arms. "Renee, promise me something would you?" He asks me, and I look from his chest to his eyes, I nod. "Promise me you're going to let yourself feel and let me know, I promise that I will do the same." He lets go of my arms. When I think 'No, don't let go,' he takes my hand and places it on his chest. This makes me feel like we will overcome anything and everything that comes our way. As long as we have each other.

"I promise."