We all talked about our plans and the rest of the month and most likely more, even though we'll be here another 3 weeks like unplanned, we might as well find things to entertain ourselves and the viewers. They still don't know about me yet but i'm completely fine with it, i don't want to be bugged with hundreds of notifications everyday like the boys are and you can even tell it gets aggravating to them by the way they groan and talk about it. Many accusations and fan accounts dming, following, tagging them in whatever they can to get their attention. I get the point it's like everyone's favorite celebrity, they dream of getting noticed and won't stop till they do. The people just don't realize how it can affect their favorite person, many negative and positive emotions through words, it's insane how you can feel emotions through someone's words. Nick definitely has a way with words, he makes me feel everything with any word he spits out of his mouth. I look at his figure next to me studying his movements trying to get anything out of it, i must have been staring to long because he looked up at me from his phone and kissed my cheek and laid his head on my shoulder, i smiled and placed my head on top of his while closing my eyes. I could still see the light of his phone through my eyelids it didn't bother me much, then everything went black and i could only see a dim light coming through the curtains. I felt Nicks head lift up so I moved mine and felt the couch moved so i opened my eyes and saw him hold out his hand for me to take. He lead me to the bedroom, George and dream fell asleep on the couch so it was only us and i can see Nick is a little agitated and probably wants to sleep. He plopped himself on top of the the covers and sheets with his arms wide open I crawled across the bed to his arms and fell into immediate comfort with his touch, I smiled at the warmth i received just from his presence when i'm around him. I placed my head down just below his chin and tangled our legs together, sometimes playing footies, he had one hand on my back and the other on the back of my neck. His hands felt a little rough and calloused from always playing video games and doing nothing else, it honestly tickled a little bit when he rubbed up and down my back but i don't mind, his touch is all i need to feel satisfied.
(a/n- i literally just felt touch starved, oh my god)
I snaked my arms underneath his so that they were laid on the bed. I played with a loose string on his hoodie, twisting it around my finger till it turned purple then watching the blood flow right back into it turning it back to its original color. The silence felt like noise, nothing could be heard but the vents turning on ever so often bring in the cold to the floors, room and whole house, I was far to entertained with the string to noticed Nick was staring at me. How long has he been staring at me, he's looking at me like how a dad looks at his baby girl, smiling so warming and welcoming with his eyes somewhat glossed over only filled with love.
N- "i'm trying to get you to fall asleep" he pouted at the end and made me giggle
y/n- "play with my hair and rub my back then, I won't move and i'll just lay here"
he nodded and snaked his hand that was on my neck up to my scalp and began to move his fingers around and tangling my hair, i let out a long, deep breathe of comfort that i didn't even know i had in me. I was so comfortable and just like he wanted I was already getting tired and a yawned formed slowly making me feel even more sleepy then i did before. Now it's been around 5 minutes of extreme tiredness and i'm slowly giving in but the one thing that's keeping me is the temptation to kiss Nick. I slowly push myself to get up and hover over him and give him a long, slow, hungry kiss while holding his cheeks. When i pulled away I saw Nick's lips curve into a smile and his cheeks flush a light shade of pink, he cupped my cheeks and pulled me down to his face then gave me a forehead kiss and pulled me back down so I was laying back down on top of him. He hugged me tightly and moved his arms in to the same position they were before I got up and continued to rub my back and play with my hair. Soon I could no longer keep my eyes open and let them fall down slowly canceling the light out. Before I could fall into my slumber I felt a light weight on top of me and a slight fuzz brush again me, he must have covered us up.
N- "get some rest hun.. i'll still be here when you wake up" then he kissed the top of my head very lightly leaving me with a smile and a very nice and comfortable sleep to take in.
A/n- AHHH I KNOW YOU ALL ARE PROBABLY TIRED OF ME SAYING IT BUT THANK YIU SO MUCH AND I LOVE YOU! we're almost at 40k reads just now as i'm finishing up and i'm can't believe it but just about a month ago we only had 18k !?! you all are so insane! i cant thank you all enough for everything even if you do just read and don't comment it still makes me happy that someone actually enjoys this just as much as i do:) I hope today went great for all of you and nothing to bad happened xD if not, i hope it gets better huns<3 there's always another day:) but get your rest and keep yourself healthy<3 Merry Christmas!
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Fanfic(TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM) How do two people make it by themselves? they don't until they meet each other. Y/n struggles with past trauma and self harm, one day her life starts to pick itself up when she bumps into Nick at school.
