(nicks pov)Monday night
I like y/n so much but i cant make it awkward an tell her i do because that's gonna put me at a risk of losing her, i can't risk that. She's all i want, need, have, i can't risk it. We decided to order pizza again for tonight while we watch hxh and probably some other shows too... the knocking at the door interrupted my thoughts, knowing it was the pizza i walked over and opened the door revealing a small teenager in a collared shirt with a colored visor, i paid and tipped him as i grabbed the pizza and called for y/n that it was here, she came happily running out of my room with the brightest childish smile plastered across her face, she looked perfect.
y/n- "what? why are you staring at me like that" she had a innocent tone to her voice which made me blush and smile hard. i just shook my head
n- "you, you're just cute" she giggled happily which brought butterflies to my stomach.
y/n- "you are too" i just want to hold her and not let go, i'm so nervous of losing her or moving to quick even thought she gives me the same energy back, i just can't help but feel like i'll screw up, she deserves everything.
(y/n pov)
There was a comfortable silence between me and nick, he was staring at me like he was questioning something or determined to do something, i walked up to him and gave him the same look but i felt this slight tension between us and it was growing slowly.
I grabbed his hand and focused on our hands for a few until i looked back at him and gave him a smile but then i felt a pair of arms around me holding me tightly, i felt warm but i was still stunned at it all being out of no where so i quickly hugged him back tighter, i buried my face in his chest and sat there for a while. i was happy to be here with him, he made me feel special, almost like i was the only thing to exist.. i dug my head out of his chest and looked up at him, examining him closely, his eye had something deeper to them other than just his beautiful color and it seemed to sparkle. Nick leaned down and i felt his nose brush against my lips, i felt the hair on his face touch my chin and his eyes stare into mine, i felt something in my chest an throat.. i liked it and the feeling he gave me. His head moved up the tiniest bit so our noses were touching as his eyes never left mine, it's almost like he's looking for something in them maybe the same ways his look. Our look broke as his eyes slowly made their way down my face to my nose then my lips and then the tension slowly grew, i want to kiss him.. i'm feeling a slight aggravation in him taking so long to do something so i did it, i kissed him. He froze and felt stiff making it feel like he hugged even tighter than before but soon he became soft and mushy and melted into everything, i realized what i had done and took away my lips from his felling a cold breeze on them from where the warmth of his were just placed
y/n- "i'm sorry i really shouldn't hav-"
i felt warmth soon again and this time it was my turn to melt and soon enough i felt mushy and warm on the inside, i wanna stay like this forever but he pulled away and gave me a light smile with a redness on his cheeks slowly starting to form. i chuckled.
y/n- "let's eat before it gets cold"
n- "wha- yeah, yeah o-okay"
we ate and slowly started to drift off but i felt a pair a arms pick me up by my thighs and place my arms around their neck, i buried my face in his neck as i felt myself being picked up and carried, i soon felt the warmth and softness beneath me and a arm under me.
y/n- "i.. like you.. nickypoo...." i said slowly still half asleep i felt his chest chuckle.
n- "i like you too, y/n"
and with that i was asleep.
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a/n: HIIII i'm extremely sorry for this taking more than a week to get out, i recently had to go school shopping and then i had to go to school on monday. my teacher decided to through a essay on me 😅 soo yk lol i'll start producing more i noticed i have 4-5k reads. 0-0 brooo what i wasn't expecting this at all i'm extremely appreciative of it i swear this is all amazing thank you so much:) <3
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Fanfiction(TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM) How do two people make it by themselves? they don't until they meet each other. Y/n struggles with past trauma and self harm, one day her life starts to pick itself up when she bumps into Nick at school.
