A/n- okay so off topic but i'm thinking of writing more than one story, mainly i want to start a dream one but obviously if it's recommended i will gladly do other smp members:) and this does not mean i will discontinue this story either, the support ive received has gotten me through so much and i wouldn't want anything better<3 but if you have recommendations for something of that sort please comment:) anyways have a good night and enjoy this chapter love<3 ps i might change the way i type things so it's like less confusing and try to improve my punctuation ;-;
Y/n P.O.V
"WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE U- EWWW LOVE BIRDS"
Me and Nick shot straight up on our arms, frightened by the ruckus coming from dreams loud mouth causing us to wake up immediately in a panic. We both eye dream while he jumps on the bed, i plop back down and get comfy while dream continues to shake my body causing me to get aggravated. Nick laughs at dreams attempt to get me out of bed but since i'm not moving he gives up and him and nick venture off into the kitchen to make breakfast. I don't feel very good at the moment but maybe it's just waking up in a new place and unfamiliar smells filling my nose, i will say the only thing keeping me in bed besides this stomach ache is how soft it feels and the scent of nick lingering on the sheets, i roll over to his side and take in the feeling of comfort almost immediately. I hear pots and pans rattling and the sound of the sink running, quiet voices and no signs of George yet, he must still be asleep.. lucky him. I figure the new smell of (favorite breakfast) is enough to get me out of bed, for now. Lifting the fluffy sheets and covers off my body and placing my feet on the ground gave me the motivation to get up and carry myself to the main room, walking down the short hallway i see pictures of dream and his family and his cat patches on the way in different assortments, some catching my eye because they're adorable and others just your cheesy family photos. I reach the living room that's connected with the kitchen and see dream and nick looking unbelievably nervous about what's going on, it's not even hard to cook. I chuckle looking at the boys struggling to even just get everything prepared, i head over to them attempting to help them out and clean stuff up as well
(a/n yes i do the cooking yes i do the cleaning
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They follow what i'm doing trying to clean up too and wash so dishes so it's not so much to work around, i look at nick right next to me his arm against mine as were finishing washing the bowls he looks more nervous than he did before.. maybe i should back away, i take a small step away after putting a dish up and he's right back next to me with our arms still touching. hm, whats up with him? dream gave up and let us take over a bit ago and would look back at us every once in awhile and winking at nick and nick would give him a half smile and continue whatever he was doing. I feel uncomfortable, no awkward or clueless i feel.. left out, what's going on that they're not telling me and why is dream doing such a horrible job at subtlety winking. Dreams sitting on the couch while flipping through channels while me and nick are drying our hands, the silence getting to be unbearable, dream fixes it.
d- "hey y/n i hope you brung a bathing suit of some
sort, me and nick were thinking of going to the beach today"
my heart drops 6ft under.. what the fuck am i gonna do.
y/n- "i- uhh um.." they both look at me "d- do i have to like get in the water?" nick looks like he's going to have a panic attack and dream looks calm with his self
d- "i mean duh but if you're not comfortable with it then you can sit on the sand with george"
nick let's out a breath of relief
y/n- "okay great.. wait, d- do i have to wear a bathing suit?"
d- "y/n this is florida. you're going to the beach. what do you plan on wearing in 80-90 degree weather, a long sleeve and sweat pants?"
y/n- "i mean i'll wear a tank top and shorts i guess.. i'm just not really okay with showing my body yet"
d- "great! you'll fit in perfectly"
i let out a breath just like nicks and he looks at me giving me a happy smile and rubbing my lower back. Breaking our moment George walks in dragging his feet on the ground with eyes barely open, he must have slept good..
n- "george? are you good man?"
george just nods and plops himself on the couch with his blanket and cuddles up again. We all look at each other but just ignore it and smile at him, jet lag must have got him last night or either dreams bed was just as nice as ours.
d- "i made sure to tuck you in last night gogy, i even did it this morning and gave you kiss on the forehead" following up with kissing noises, George looks at him with wide eyes and sits up in shock cause us to all die in laughter.
g- "whatever, you wish i'd let you get that close to me"
d- "what are you talking about? you asked me to cuddle with you last night"
George by the looks of it wasn't owning up to something, cause his face was a red as a tomato
g- "what! n- no i did"
d- "yes, yes you did. you even threw a hissy fit when i said no"
George gave up on arguing and turned back over pulling the blanket over his face hiding his cheeks, leaving us in shock and giggles. After eating and George giving his little head shakes to dream and some eye glares which we all catch and dream smiles at. it's around 10:30am and we all decided we'd probably be ready in about an hour and it would take 30 minutes to an hour to get to the beach so we just did what we had to until then. I walked into mine and nicks bed room and bent over grabbing a white tank top and some black shorts, i was just about to come up but nick stood behind me grabbing my hips making my whole body heat up in an instant.
I looked over my shoulder at him and he gave me a smile, i finally stood up straight and and both of our body met, he slithered both arms around my wait pulling me closer and resting his head in the crook of my neck kissing it softly, i tilted my head to the side and put my hands over his while he slowly swayed up back and forth. i closed my eyes and smiled. i felt warm inside and out, i felt calm and happy, i felt.. loved.
i turned around to look at him and cupping his face in the process studying it in the process, making eye contact and his doing the same, there's that look once again with his eyebrows furrowed together he looks like he's trying to find something, but what? i slide my tongue over my lips wetting them and breaking our stare to look at his lips, he does the same thing i did and leans down to my height connecting our lips just like before, the warmth travels through my body almost feeling like a wave splashing over me, i moved my hand to his hair tugging just bit and feeling him groan against my lips and breath harshly. he breaks it for a second giving me the same stare as always and taking in his breaths trying to calm himself down, but i wanted more, i wanted to feel connected again and the warmth he gave off just from his touch was enough to pull me back in, i went back in feeling the same warmth but this time the kiss was different it felt like he was hungry for it but so was i.. it felt hot and wet, i licked his lips in hopes of him agreeing for it but he took it upon himself to plunge his tongue in my mouth instead and exploring every part of it, our spit mixing and not being able to catch our breath and wanting more at the same time. He picked me up and placed me on the bed while me hovered over me, the drawstrings of his hoodie dangling in my face while we stared into each other eyes just for a moment longer this time.. i looked deeply into his eyes, i felt like i found and saw everything i've wanted to see. He leaned down attaching his lips to my cheek then my jaw and neck while rubbing his hands up and down my sides, the only sound to be heard was our heavy breathing. I looked up to see the door shut already, and nick stopped what he was doing looking at me and moving his hands from my sides to my face caressing it.. i smiled warmly at him and it almost looked as if he melted.
n- "you're so.. pretty"
that's the first time i feel like someone's ever meant it.
n- "and amazing and so beautiful."
i don't wanna cry but my feelings become overwhelming with the emotions he's showing, it feels like he genuinely cares and likes me but i feel loved with every touch and look i receive from him, i tear up.
y/n- "you're perfect."
he slowly lets himself on top of me with his face in the crook of my neck. i closed my eyes for a few minutes taking in every second of this until i heard sniffles, i pull nicks head up to look at him and his eyes are red with his cheeks wet and tear stain and gives me a weak smile.
y/n- "what's wrong hun" i frown
n- "you.."
y/n- "i- what.." what's wrong with me
n- "you're so good to me.." i lightly chuckle and smile
y/n- "and you're even better to me" i say softly
he breaks down at that point and goes back to hiding his face in my neck while wrapping his arm underneath my back and his hand underneath my head. His tears falling down my neck i let him let all of his feelings out, no one deserves to be alone with their feeling, even if there these kinds of feelings.
n- "thank you." he says and give me a quick kiss
y/n- "of course" i say and rub the back of his neck
n- "do you want to start getting ready now" he ends it with a small laugh and we both check the time which we've spent around 30 minutes in here, i nod and i pick up my clothes so i can change and stand in the bath room. I change into my tank top and shorts but ask nick for a hoodie so i can hide whatever there is beyond the clothing. We all gather in the living room by the door, checking to make sure we have everything and are ready and make our way to dreams car, putting towels in the trunk and fitting and umbrella in there too. dream decided to drive since he knows where it is and George sat in the passengers seat while me and nick sat in the back.
A/N- that's 2004 words. not including these either, i hope this makes up for how short the other chapter are but lucky you guys i'm going on a trip tomorrow and i'll have 4 hours and the rest of tonight to dedicate to this story:))) i'm still not sure how i want this to end. or if i'll make a sequel i honestly like letting you guys decide on how stuff like that plays out. but makes sure you get some rest and stay healthy babes<3
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Fanfiction(TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM) How do two people make it by themselves? they don't until they meet each other. Y/n struggles with past trauma and self harm, one day her life starts to pick itself up when she bumps into Nick at school.
