Savior 🔞

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I'm so nervous. Jungkook's parents are coming today to meet me, and share a meal. I feel so unworthy of their son, and I think they're going to tell him to move on from me. All my dreams lately have been the different ways that I'll lose Jungkook. They all start out happy, but then he leaves me, taking my baby away. Ha-eun is usually in them, reminding me of how damaged and worthless I am.

They moved a bed in the room for Jungkook to be able to sleep on since the incident a few days ago. I had basically kicked him out because he was clearly tired after only sleeping on a chair, or the couch. When he was leaving, I saw how I broke his heart. He needed rest though, and he needs to take care of himself. I had refused any touches or kisses that evening, to seperate myself from him. I have to find a way to be able to survive without them... After all, I don't believe we will end up together...

After he left that night, I laid awake thinking about everything. Remembering all the horrible pain I've received, and that he's suffered since I came into his life. Loving me is going to hurt him too much, and I can't have that. I was lost in my thoughts when I heard his voice... Why can't you accept my love? I can't breathe without you... Please Love... Stop pushing me away!

I could hear him sobbing and begging me to let him love me. My heart hurt so much, but I refused to block him out. I discovered our strange, and wonderful connection when I was being held by Ha-eun. I would hear him calling to me and aegi, and it helped me. I found that I could shut it out when I needed to though. Like when Ha-eun or Ju-won were hurting me, I couldn't bear to hear his beautiful voice during those moments.

I lay there hearing his voice, and his cries, with tears running down my face. I didn't even realize when someone entered my room. I froze when she spoke to me... "You know Freak... I don't like that you're in my way since you've come in to my life." Opening my eyes, I see Seo-yeon standing at the foot of my bed. "Please go away Seo-yeon. I have nothing to say to you."

"That's too bad... I think you're going to want to hear what I have to say." She looked smug and like she's knew something I didn't. I was tired, and sad so I tried to ignore her by shutting my eyes. "You need to leave Jungkook... My aunt Ha-eun will kill him if you don't." I snapped my eyes open hearing her say that. She's in contact with Ha-eun? I started to shake, and she giggled at me.

"What? Just hearing about your mother scares you that much? I can't wait to see what happens when she takes you back. I just don't want my fiancée getting hurt trying to save a worthless bitch like you!" She gripped my hair and made me look into her eyes. "I knew from the first time I laid eyes on your disgusting face, you were nothing but a loser. Break it off with Jungkook after the baby comes. Don't drag him down with you." She released my hair by tossing my head to the side... I felt the corner of the night stand hit my temple and I blacked out.

When I woke up again, I found a panting Jungkook crashing through the door. He ran to me, and immediately checked my head. "What happened Love? Did someone do this? Tell me who did it!" I took his hand and looked into his eyes... And lied.

"I lost my balance when I tried to stand... It's nothing... How are you here?"

"Jesus Sophia!! Stop lying to me!! Why can't you just tell me what happened? Who are you protecting?"

At his raised voice I began shaking... My heart beating so fast I felt faint. He saw my state, and tried to come closer, but I cowered away from him. "Nooo... Don't be afraid of me... Please Love..." I watched him collapse to his knees and weep, and I couldn't bear it seeing him like this. "Seo-yeon... She did this... I'm sorry..." He looked at me through his tears, and stood.

"What did she say? Why didn't you tell me?" I felt my body vibrating from the thought of Ha-eun, and how Seo-yeon is involved with her. The threat to his safety... If I tell him, he'll brush it off... He won't take it seriously, and then he could get hurt. I'll never forgive myself if Ha-eun hurts him because I ignore the warning... "Sophia? Please... Tell me what lies she told you."