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Jungkook

It's been almost 6 months since Sophia left. I remember like it was yesterday how, after hearing everything, she broke down. Her mental health was hanging by a thread, and as much as I tried to convince myself that I could give her anything to help, I had to accept that, what she needed, was to go away... Away from here... Away from me...

"Appa?" The sweet sound of my daughter's voice has me hastily wiping my tears, and clearing my throat. She has seen me at my worst the past months, and I hate how I look like a weak cry baby in front of her. I turn from staring at the pictures of her mother that sit on my desk, and stand to go to Olivia.

When I make it downstairs, she's standing in the living room with Yoongi hyung giggling at the sweet infant in his arms. I feel my heart pinch remembering that Sophia is getting close to her due date, and I might not be with her. Shaking the thoughts away, I enter and paste a smile on my face at the sight of the new father. Hobi hyung and Yoongi hyung adopted the sweet little boy a couple months ago. His presence has softened Yoongi hyung considerably.

"Thank you for picking up Olivia, Hyung. Look at you with this little man... He's growing fast." Yoongi turns to me with a gummy smile and just nods. His eyes track back to his son, like a magnet is pulling them. I get it... I remember how I couldn't look away from Olivia for the first year... I remember how I do the same with her mother...

"So, Jungkook... Hobi called me... He says that she's ready..." My head snaps up to stare into his eyes that are now looking at me again. "Hobi said that her treatment is complete, and she's asking to see you." My heart begins to pace at an accelerated rate, and I take a deep breath.

"Did he say if she's coming back? Is she coming home?" Yoongi cocks his head and glances at Olivia. I feel my stomach sink, and I know the answer is no. I hide my frustration, but turn on my heel and walk to the kitchen to hide the tears pricking at my eyes. She's never coming back... Why am I surprised? After everything... All the ways I couldn't protect her, why would she want me? I'm lost in my thoughts when I feel a hand on my shoulder.

"Kookie-ah... Don't give up. If you want something, fight for it." I feel the first tear roll down my cheek, and I stare at the floor. I'm so exhausted. I haven't slept well since she left, and I don't eat like I should. I drink more than I used to, and have taken up the habit of smoking. My hair has grown out, and I feel my muscles weakening every day... I'm not strong in any way, anymore... I'm a shadow of the man she remembers... What will she think?

"Listen to me Jungkook-ah. She wants to see you. Did you miss that I said that?" His voice barely reaches my ears as the tears continue to fall, and I continue to tell myself how much I've failed as a man. When he's had enough of me I feel a smack on the back of my head. "What is your problem Kook? The woman you love wants to see you! Get packing! Get your ass on a plane!"

I rub my sore head and glare at my hyung. "Why isn't she coming here? Did she say? I don't want to fly all the way to LA and hear her tell me she doesn't want to be with me hyung... I know" "You don't know shit Jungkook! Do you not love her anymore?"

My eyes go wide, and I stare at him like he's nuts. "Of course I love her! I feel like I'm missing half of my soul when she's gone... But" "But what? Don't be a dumbass! Go and get your other half back. Don't take no for an answer, and bring her home!" He's shaking me now, and I realize he is right... I need to go and get her... I can't live another day without her.

As I take a few steps, I halt and turn back. "Thanks hyung... But" "Shut up and GO!!" I chuckle and rush up to my room. I grab a suitcase, and start throwing clothes into it. I don't even know what I'm grabbing, but it doesn't matter. Anything I forget, I'll buy when I'm there. I zip my bag, and run down the stairs. At the bottom I stop when I see Olivia with tears in her eyes. I hurry to her and kneel down in front of my angel. "Appa... I'll miss you... Please bring Eomma home..."