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I hate everything about this place... The smell of disinfectant... The sounds of beeping machines... Worst of all, the crying... Crying of patients... Loved ones... It brings back every awful memory of the times I've had to spend in a place like this.

"Sophia-ah? Love? It's ok... I'm here."

His lovely voice brings me back to the present, and I turn to see his concerned eyes. I nod, gulping my thick saliva. I hate that we are always in a hospital... I hate all the times I hurt him while we were in one... I hate myself...

"Hey... What are you thinking?"

His warm hands cup my face, wiping tears I didn't realize I was shedding.

"I-I'm so-sorry... I... uuuhhnn... I..."

"Shhhh... Relax my love... The doctor will be here soon, and we'll be finished before you know it."

I want to scream my thoughts, but I know it is futile. My fucking brain won't let me, and I feel stupid.

"Hey So... I know you hate this. It's important though. You might be the next medical miracle that they write about... Stop being such a drama queen, alright?"

I turn to glare at Hoseok, but end up grinning at his sunshine smile. I hate this guy sometimes... I can't even enjoy a good sulk with him around.

"Shuu-shut up!!"

Both of the men start laughing, and I can't hold my smile. The door to the room opens and the Dr walks in with one of the nurses. They sit across the desk from us, and I feel myself getting nervous. The only thing holding me from running, is Jungkook's warm hand holding mine.

"Miss Sophia... Mr Jeon... Thank you for coming. I have the results of the latest tests, and I wanted to go over them with you."

Jungkook whispers to me in Korean so I know that the Dr's saying, but I feel like I understood him even before he did that. I don't react, but continue to listen to what they have to tell me.

My tests show that aside from some language struggles, I'm doing well. They are encouraged by the fact that I continue to improve, and I am able to continue my therapy anywhere if we choose to travel. When he mentions my ability to have another child, I'm stunned... Why is that part of this? Was there something that I didn't know?

"Sophia?"

I turn to Jungkook, and I can see his face shows he's panicked.

"Love... You're actually hurting me."

His eyes glance to our joined hands, and I loosen my grip. I stare into his eyes that usually hold everything I need to calm down, but right now, I'm freaking out. Why are they talking about this? I should never be allowed to have another baby after I've abandoned the ones I already gave birth to.

"So... Look at me."

I turn to Hobi, and he smiles gently at me. I calm a little, but still hold tight to Jungkook.

"Listen to me... He's just giving a report. There is no pressure, and it's good news that you could have a baby if you wanted. Right?!?"

I nod at him, even if I don't agree. Jungkook squeezes my hand, and I turn to him.

"I love you... It's fine... We'll use birth control if you want... I am happy with whatever you decide."

"Wa-wait... Wha-what?"

The Dr clears his throat, and we turn to him.

"As I was saying... If you want to get pregnant, you're perfectly capable to do so... But you'll need to be monitored very closely. Your history of pre-eclampsia makes it high risk from the beginning. You will need to have low stress, and plenty of exercise. Do you understand?"