One day after another

jealousy and joy

I walked back to the Gryffindor common room with a walk of shame. I wasn't expecting to get drunk and sorta sleep with draco, I thought we'd have a few drinks and just talk but clearly we had other plans. The walk back seemed to take forever but no one else was in the halls besides me. I was definitely hung over and i know i looked it too. I told the fat lady the password and walked into the common room.
There on the sofa, George, he was sleeping and i'm not sure why he was down here but i could care less. I wanted to get to my room as quickly as i could.

"Ya know i was worried about you" i heard George say

"So you weren't sleeping" i ask him

"I haven't been able to, i didn't know where you went last night i was worried"

"That must suck" i tell him

George stands up walking over to me, he noticed i looked ill and the next think he saw was the marks around my neck.

"Who did that, where the hell were you Claire"

"Don't act like you care George my god"

"Claire don't act like this come on, why do you smell like fire whiskey? Were you drinking?" he started to yell but he also sounded concerned

"Yes okay so what? I went off had a few drinks and ended up in a Slytherins bed so what? If you cared so much maybe just maybe you wouldn't have done what you did George"

"Who's bed was is?"

"Don't worry about it"

"Who have you those hickeys Claire?"

"Dont fucking worry about it George"

"Where the hell were you Claire, Why do you smell like alcohol, why do you have hickeys on your neck, why are you in someone else's clothes, why-" he stops mid sentence. His eyes became glossy like he was going to cry.

"Do you really wanna know oh so bad" I ask him

"Yes" he said through his teeth

"Draco Fucking Malfoy love" i tell him with an attitude

"Don't"  He said while grabbing my wrist

"Yeah and what are you gonna do about it huh, please tell me. I think if Angelina comes down here and sees these marks on my neck and you this close to me i think she won't be to happy" i tell him

I hadn't noticed how close we were, i also didn't notice i left my clothes in Dracos room but now isn't the time to think about it. Our bodies were basically touching and i could feel his breath on my face.  He didn't seem happy at all, he seemed angry and sad the same way i felt when i saw him with Angelina. I thought i'd feel happy that he would be hurt but i felt bad. I didn't want to hurt him, that's the last thing i wanted to do. I'm a horrible person.

"Georgie"

"Don't call me that" he said still gripping my wrist but harder

"Love" i say again but now tears coming out of my eyes

"Don't fucking call me that Claire" now tears going down his face. He was hurt and it was my fault

"I'm sorry, please don't cry come one George don't cry i'm sorry"

"I told you i was sorry, i explained myself to you and it was stupid. But instead of realizing you fucking slept with draco"

"I didn't sleep with him, We were drunk and we just kissed okay. I promise we didn't do anything besides that"

"Why are you in his clothes then huh"

"I wanted to take a shower"

"Don't lie to me Claire" He was still crying and his grip started to get a little tighter

"George i promise i just wanted to take a shower and i was to drunk to come back. George please stop you're hurting me" i told him

His grip loosened and he really underestimated his strength. He looked at me with pain  in his eyes and it hurt. Is this how he felt, guilty?

Both of us crying in the common room early in the morning before the sun had even come up, what a perfect way to spend a fine December morning. I wrapped my arms around him and i cried into his chest, i felt his head rest on top of mine and i felt horrible. I didn't want to hurt him. I didn't mean to hurt him. Oh my boy, i could still hear him crying and it was painful to listen to.  I looked up at him and i wiped his tears, i didn't want to see him cry.

"Go get some sleep, you look exhausted and we don't have classes today. We can both talk when we're both well rested and know what's going on completely" i tell him

"Come with me, it's only Fred and I in a room. He won't mind, please. i don't want you leaving my side anymore" he said with tears still rolling down his face

"Alright" i told him with a smile

We both walked up to the boys dorms and we walked into his and Fred's room. Fred was out like a light and he wasnt waking up anytime soon. George and i got into his bed, we laid together both of us facing each other. He pulled me closer to him and my face was burried in his chest. I could hear his heart pounding, he kissed my forehead and the next thing i knew he was asleep. This boy had a special place in my heart and i don't want anyone else to take his place. Ever.