One day after another

Fred Weasley.

I'm back again, but it's different. George and I sat together with the rest of the Weasley family along with Hermione and Ginny. The chaos seems to be over and everyone seems calmer.

Gorges hand is connected to mine as we sat in silence. I stood up letting go of his hand walking over to where my fathers lifeless body laid. Maybe he was better where he was, safer. George followed close behind me and watched as a tear fell from my eye.

He wrapped his arm around my shoulders pulling me close to him. "It's okay Claire, they're safe now. We're all safe now." He says.

I leaned my head against his shoulder and he rested his head against mine.  Thinking of the words that just slipped from his lips that finally sunk in.

"I guess forever isn't always." I mumble

I felt defeated, exhausted physically and mentally. My knees felt weak along with the rest of my body, I leaned up against him letting go. He held me close as both of us let out quiet sobs.

He lost his best  friend and I lost my father, finally having him back I lost him once again.

"Sometimes death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss in life is what dies inside of us while we're alive." I hear my fathers voice say.

I pull away from George's chest looking at my father. Still pale and lifeless, Parts of me were hoping all of this wasn't real but deep down I knew that this day was bound to come.

Fred and I had the friendship of me saying "i hate you" and he always replied with "you know you love me" but we never got the happy ending our friendship deserved. Now after whatever the hell this is I'm gonna have to visit his grave to tell him how I love him.

I opened my eyes to a pitch black room, the only noise heard was George and Fred's breathing and the wind blowing. Dealing with these nightmares were slowly starting to get easier yet harder at the same time.

I turned my body to face Fred, his eyes closed peacefully as his breathing was steady. I moved his hair from his eyes, everything in me wanted to believe this wasn't real. He started to hum moving his head around, I kissed his forehead standing up quietly leaving the room. I stepped over the floorboard that I knew would make noise trying not to wake anybody up.

I got to the bottom of the stairs noticing a light on in the kitchen. Turning the corner I found my dad along with Sirius. He held the daily profit in his hands with a glass of tea and a bar of chocolate as always. He folded the paper looking over to me, he had dark circles under his eyes as he simply looking exhausted.

"What are you doing awake?" I ask sitting in the chair across from him

Finally setting the paper down and connecting his hands he let out a long sigh.

"I should be asking you the same dear, don't worry about me you should head back to bed. In Ginnys room this time" He says with a smile.

I giggle at his remark as I looked around the dark house. It was different at night, there wasn't as much life. The clock still had all of its pictures on home, there were no dishes being washed in the kitchen, and there wasn't the loud commotion and laughter.

I leaned back in my chair sitting in silence with my father and uncle. We heard another pair of footsteps coming down the steps and turning the corner was George. He smiled at both of us while walking to the kitchen.

"So, what happened exactly between you and George?" Sirius whispered

This is the first time I have really thought about it since well since valentine's day. Like I said George and I put it behind us but a part of me still hasn't let go. Yes I am with Fred but he's not the same as George, he knew when to be gentle and to kiss the right places and say the right things.

Fred on the other hand just says what he pleases and instead of pushing flirty people away he brings them closer. I let out a sigh and looked between my uncle and my father.

"His heart was with someone else and I just happened to come around at the wrong time." I say

I lowered my head looking down at my hands. I heard my father stand up telling me goodnight and going upstairs, Sirius followed shortly behind him.

I stood up pushing my chair in going to the kitchen finding George staring out the window. I leaned against the counter next to him as he turned the same way I was.

Neither of us said anything we just listened to the silence and maybe it was better that way. He let out a sigh pushing off the counter heading towards the door.

"Well you comin?" He whispers

I giggle as I push off the counter going towards him. He opens the door and a gust of warm summer air brushes against my skin. I walked out behind George and the wind continued blowing.

I closed my eyes taking a deep breath in and opening them when I let out. Looking over George was looking down on me with a smile spread across his face. I smiled back to him as he sat down in the grass.

"So, how are you and Freddie?" He asks nudging me with his elbow.

I should've known this question was going to come, why wouldn't it. He's his brother of course he wants to know how our relationship is and to make sure we're okay but why now?

"Well do you want me to be honest?" I laugh looking over  at him.

He nods his head yes and looks back up to the sky.

"George, I don't know what to do, I'm happy with Fred but he's not....never mind but it's rough. When we're alone we don't actually spend time together we just do unspoken things you don't want to hear about. He's never taken me on a date which I don't mind but even a walk down to the black lake would've satisfied me!" I say looking over to him.

He pressed his lips together looking at me pitifully. I didn't want to be pitied but I also wanted a way out of this relationship without hurting somebody. I cared for Fred deeply but he wasn't who or what I wanted.

I love Fred but maybe only in a friend type way. Cuddling with him is nice and kissing him and all that is lovely but I don't know maybe I'm just over thinking it.

"Have you talked to him about these things?" George asks.

I shake my head no letting out a sigh looking up at the sky. They were bright tonight, brighter than ever. Fred never did these things, said they were a bit stupid. To him stars were just small dots in the sky but to me they were a way to know that no matter how far I am from someone, we're still looking at the same constellation and under the same sky.

We sat outside for another while until the sun started coming up. George stood up putting his hand out for me to take and I did so. We walked back inside and up the stairs missing the loud floorboards.

Slyly sneaking back into the room with Fred still asleep we crawled back into our separate beds going to sleep. I laid closely to Fred soaking up every moment I had left before it ended. I tried pushing it off telling myself it's not going to hurt but deep down I know it will.

Taking a deep breath in I feel his arm trace up my back rubbing it gently. He was still sound asleep but he pulled me closely to him and held me tight.

Oh Fred Weasley what are you doing to me.

Hey besties! I'm sorry I know this chapter isn't very long but I wanted to get something out tonight so if it's horrible I'm sorry. I hope everyone has an amazing night or day<3