I'll take care of you

3rd times a charm

We both sat there, sitting on the edge of the bed. All the other roommates had gone to work earlier that morning so Derek and I had the house to ourselves. We sat there with a small timer in my hand counting down the seconds that where left on it. 5,4,3,2,1 the rain on the window pain tapped as the seconds went down, *beep* *beep* the timer went off. I let out a deep sigh as Derek rubbed my back. "Do you want me to get it?" He asked looking at the bathroom table with the untouched pregnancy test on it. "No, it's fine I can get it" I looked at him before getting up and gave him a kiss before walking to the bathroom.

I stood there at the wooden door frame, tapping my fingers against the counter top looking at the test. It's just a stick... a stick that can make me break down and cry if it's negative. Ok just do it. I said to myself as I reached for the white plastic stick, before I could get to it I heard a pair of slippers brush against the hardwood floor. It was Derek, I felt his hands travel to my waist and pull me in to his grasp. He buried his head into the crook of my neck as he rubbed his hands up and down the sides of my body. "Mer do you want me to check it?" He asked trying to comfort me, it was working. He always knew how to make me feel way better. "No, if it's positive I have to be the one to carry this baby... I have to know" I said picking it up. I was holding it faced down so I couldn't see it yet, "ok just do it." I said staying firm at myself. "Ok, 1,2,3-" Derek had placed his hand on mine ready to turn the test over and look. "Wait!" I said frantically before he turned it over. "Ok... I'm ready" I said as I grasped his hand, "ok 1,2,3" we turned it over. I let my other hand slide around to the back of his waist and I grasped his shirt with all my strength.

We both sat there looking at the test, we looked at the one singular line. "Dammit" I said as I threw the test in the garbage. "Mer" he said turning me around, "no,no,no" I could feel my eyes starting to tear up. He looked at me with that same look that comforts me immediately, I burrowed my head into the crook of his neck and started to cry. "Come here" he said as he pulled me in as close as he could, "what's the point!" I said between sobs and cry's. "there is a point mer" he said stoking his fingers through my hair, "I can't do it anymore, trying so hard just to get a negative test every damm time" at this point his shirt was soaked from all my tears. "Hey, look at me" he said pulling my chin upwards to his face. "I promise we will be parents, I promise" his words definitely made me feel more comfortable but at the same time I was so mad at myself. I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him as tight as I possible could. I jumped in his arms and wrapped my legs around his waist, "shh, shh it's ok" he reassured me as he rocked me back and forth in the bathroom. "I'm taking the day off, and so are you" he insisted. "Der-" she tried to stop him from doing this all for just her, "no, we are staying home and watching movies and eating our feelings!" I looked at him with laughter under my breath. "Ok..." I said as he brought me to the bed and laid me down.

——-1 week later——-
Meredith was standing in the kitchen making diner for her and Derek, he wouldn't be home for another hour she had lots of time to make supper for him. I was making an Italian dish that I hadn't made for him in a long time. I was throwing herbs, spices, meat, pasta, and more into the sauce pan, I didn't even realize he was standing in the doorway watching me dance and cook at the same time. "Well hello" he greeted me from a distance. "Ahh!" I screeched as his presence scared the crap out of me, I proceeded to dance despite his big smile watching me. "What are you making?" He asked coming up behind me and pulling me by the waist and hugging me. "Parmesan pasta with sauce!" I pranced around the kitchen holding more things my hands could hold. "Ok so I found a really nice house." Derek commented pulling papers out of his brief case. "Really? Don't you think it's a little soon to move?" I asked while eyeing him as I threw things into the saucepan, "I know but I think you'll really like it!" I was hesitant on letting him show me but I have in and sat beside him. "Look 2 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, and a finished basement." I was looking over the papers and trying to find the good in the house, "I already told you, I want you to build us a house." I stated as I pulled a piece of hair away from his face. "Mer" he tried to stop me from going back to the cooking but I pranced back to the pan and just smiled at him.
As we sat down at dinner there was an awkward silence lurking at the table, "so how was work?" I asked trying to make light of things. "Good, I had a few craniotomies this morning, and just had some charts to catch up on." His day sounded boring but probably not as boring as mine, "how about you, how was your day?" He asked while he took a bite of the pasta I made. "Ohh umm I did labs, blood drawls." My day beat his by a mile stone on the boring list. "Mer can we talk?" His tone went down like 5 notches low, "what's up?" I asked as I set my wine glass down on the table that was coated by a red table cloth. "I was thinking..."