I'll take care of you

5 minutes

"So I was thinking..." an awkward silence came apparent once again. "We've been trying so hard to start a family, and I-I just think we should maybe consider other options?" I almost choked on my food, I mean I could see how eager he was to start a family but... ugh there was just so many things I wanted to say, instead I dropped my table cloth and stormed up stairs. "Meredith!" He tried to get me to come back and talk.

I piloted onto the bed digging my face into his pillow breathing I'm his scent. Not long after I heard foot steps coming up the stairs, "Meredith..." a voice called me out from the door frame, "what." I said firmly letting him know I was upset. "We are married, you don't get to walk out like that. We talk, work things out, and we stay. We don't run" he had a point but I hated it when he was right. "Sorry..." I said as I brought my body up to surface from the duvet. "I just..." I stopped my sentence, "what? What is it?" Derek walked over and sat on the edge of the bed. "I just don't want to give up on trying for a baby, I mean my body was built to do this and it fails us every time!" I could feel the rush of hot tears streaming down my cheeks, my throat started to become sore and scratchy. "Meredith.." he pulled me in for a hug as I collapsed in his warm embrace. "Why! What's so wrong with me?" I could feel his fingers run through my hair trying to calm me, and it was working. "Nothing mer, absolutely nothing. I promise we will be parents one way or another" I felt myself drifting off in his arms as the last tear streamed down my face. "I love you" I sniffled as my eyes closed For the last time that night, "I love you more" he placed a kiss on my head before carrying me to our bedroom.

The next morning I woke up to an empty bed, it was rare to wake up next to nobody because he would usually be almost suffocating her with his warmth and grip. She sat and stared out the window for a minute before hearing some noice downstairs, she decided to get up and see what her husband was doing. She slipped on her black panties and his button up shirt hoping the roommates wouldn't be home. I walked down the stairs as the noice got louder and louder. I walked into the kitchen and saw him making breakfast in only his beer briefs. I stood at the door and watched as he grabbed different items from the cupboards and threw them in the pan. I'm surprised he didn't notice because I was almost laughing my ass off, I was about to say good morning when I felt a churning in my stomach. What the hell? I brushed it off and went back to watching him cook. I sat there for a few more seconds until I got a smell of the breakfast, it smelt amazing but it was just enough to send me over the edge. I arched my back over the door frame and threw up whatever I ate last night... gross. "Meredith!" Derek ran over to me with a hand towel and held my hair as I threw up. "Mer, what's wrong?" He asked when I finally finished, "oh nothing probably just a bug." I slouched down on the floor as his hand rubbed my back. "I'll be fine, we need to go to work" he looked up at me like I was crazy, "mnm I don't think so, we are staying home" he said as he picked me up and brought me to the couch. "You stay right her I'm going to get you some soup" he kissed my forehead and walked off to the kitchen. About 5 minutes later her showed up with a bowl of soup and tea, "Ohh your too good to me" I commented as he brought the soup over and sat on the edge of the couch with me. "Do you wanna watch a movie and cuddle all day?" He asked, I smiled and said, "umm duh, there is nothing I would rather be doing" he laid down behind me on the couch and then I laid down in front of him as i felt his warm body hover over mine.

After about an hour of cuddling I felt the same feeling in my stomach appear, I could hear small snores coming from Derek but I didn't want to wake him. Instead I rushed to the bathroom and threw up the remaining of my chicken noodle soup. I laid on the bathroom floor and caught my breath before I heard Derek walk to find the source of the noice, as soon as he saw me I had puke all over my shirt and I was in a cold sweat. "Oh mer" he comforted me and laid on the cold tile floor next to me, "I'm fine" I tried to convince him but he wasn't falling for it. "No, you are going to take bath." He picked me up like a bride despite the throw up on my shirt, and brought me to our bedroom and ran me a bath. As I was sitting on the edge of the bed while he got my bath ready my eyes travelled to the countless empty pregnancies tests sitting in the trash bin. I looked for a minute before I gasped. Derek immediately noticed and ran to my side, "Mer, what is it?" He asked sitting beside me on the bed. I looked at the tests than back at him with wide eyes, "it's been 42 days" I said looking at the running bath water in the room next to me. "42 da-" he stopped when he realized what I meant. "Ohh..." I looked at him with excitement and horror at the same time. "Go to the store!" I practically pushed him out of the house to go get a test.

1 hour later he came back with a bag full of different tests, I was pacing around the hall occasionally placing my hand on my hopefully not empty uterus. When he walked in the door a confused look shot up on my face. "An hour to get a test Derek" I was mad but he was so cute at the same time, "ya, I um didn't know what one to get" he said as he scratched the back of his head. He walked up to me and handed me the bag, "oh please let their be a baby" I wrapped my arms around his neck, our foreheads where both touching as I stood on my tippy toes to be at his level. "I think god owes us this for all the crappy things he's done to us before" I commented as he kissed my lips, it was soft but caring at the same time. "I know, but I also have to thank him for giving me you" he said with a smirk on his dreamy face. "Ok, I should probably go take the test" we where both smiling as he looked down at my stomach, "ya." I went upstairs and peed on a stick for probably the 6th time in 2 months. Ok deep breaths I thought to myself, deep breaths. I set it on the counter and set a timer for 5 minutes as instructed, it was the longest 5 minutes of my life.

Finally the timer went off and I decided that I would take it down stairs for Derek and I both to see it together. I walked down the stairs where he was waiting on the front bench in the hallway, "Derek" I called his name out for him to come over to me. "Did you see?" He was jumping up and down like a little kid waiting for my answer, "no, I wanted you to look with me" his eyes widened when I said that. "I have the stick" I held it up facing down so that he could see I had it. "Ok, come here" he walked to the stairs and helped me walk to the bench where he was sitting. "Derek" I asked just before he flipped the stick, "ya?" He looked over at me. "I'm scared" his eyes immediately filled with sadness and fear. "Me too, but if you are pregnant you are going to be the best mommy ever, and if not... then we keep trying, until we are" this brought tears to my eyes when he said that. "Ok" I scooted closer to him and he set me on his lap like a little kid, I still held the stick waiting for myself to turn it over. "Ok, 1,2,3 flip" his hands where over mine when we flipped the stick over to see the answer...