You're Not The Only One.

Chapter 3

A/N : To each an every one of you who have supported me in this journey and who have been patiently waiting for the update,this is dedicated to you. I hope you like it. Excuse me for any grammatical or linguistic erros, I have used Google Translate for the Turkish dialgoues. If there are mistakes then do let me know.😘❤
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(Hande's Pov)
Hakan sighed and rubbed his temples. This was going to be a long day. I could feel it in my bones. And for the first time since we had started filming together,we were not focused on our work.
"Take five and then we'll try this scene, again." he barked.
The tension between us was palpable.So thick that you could cut it with a knife.
We were filming the 'elevator scene'- The much awaited kissing scene where Eda overcomes her fear with Serkan's help.
It is supposed to be an emotional scene. A vulnerable one.But his proximity was doing me no good and there was nothing more fustrating for me than not getting the shot right.
"Hande.." His voice jolted me out of my thoughts. He was too close to me. Too close to my heart. So close that my thoughts were getting muddled up.
"Ne?"
" Are you upset with me ? " The hair on my neck bristled as his breath fanned my neck. My back was to him .
I did not dare turn around to face him. One look at me..into my eyes and the truth would resurface. I couldn't dare thinking of the possibility of baring my confusion, my feelings and everything in front of him.
The armour that I have been trying so hard to put up ,the indifference masking my uncertainities and confusion that clouded my mind , was the only thing that was protecting my heart at the moment.
Why was he being so difficult?Why was I getting so bothered about a costar?A friend? He could be with whoever he wants. It shouldn't be affecting my work. My mind. I wanted to turn around so bad and ask him about last night.
But did he owe me the answers? I was probably just another friend to him.Like Anil or Bige .
He placed his hand on my shoulder and turned me around to face him.
" Handee..something is bothering you. Is this about last night?"
Allah !Allah! Could he read my mind or what?
" Kerem..."I wanted the earth to swallow me up. I had to fix this before my jealous girlfriend act came up in front of me when I was far from being his girlfriend. We still had months of shooting left and this would just make things awkward between us.
" I am sorry about last night.."
" It's nothing Kerem.. iyiyim.Why would I miss my que or mess up my lines because I am upset with you ?" I cut him off and looked away.
" Benden kaçıyorsun . Neden?"(You are escaping from me.Why?)
I heard his exasperated sigh.I wish I could open up to him , maybe sort things out to get done with this shoot but it was not possible.
I would have to seperate my problems from Eda.
" I don't have to share everything with you Kerem. Some things are personal.Tamam?"
I saw hurt slice through his face before he masked it under a grim smile. I had no other option.
I was just a friend to him. Nothing more.
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(Kerem's Pov)
We moved back in front of the camera. Hakan saved us from more awkward moments.
We were supposed to kiss in this scene.Not once .But twice. And add a slap in between.But after six failed takes and Hande's behaviour towards me from the morning,my day was taking a turn towards worse. I was on the edge and her indiffernce was doing no good.
I slipped into my character as soon as Hakan yelled "Action" and saw in front of my eyes as Hande transformed into Eda.
Her eyes clouded , vulnerable, seeking me..no sorry seeking Serkan Bolat.
I cradled her head to my chest. Her chest rising and falling against mine.
" sen iyi misin?"
She looked up at me. Her doe shaped eyes looking vulnerable and lost. The tension from the morning , coupled with my attraction towards her and the frustration of not knowing what was wrong with her, hazed my vision as our heads moved closer to each other.
" Nefes almak(Take a breathe) .... Bizi hatırla.(Remember us)." I whispered close to her ears and saw her lips quiver with anticipation of the kiss.
Hakan's occasional instructions were a low buzz in our ears. We knew the scene by heart and we knew our character inside out.
"Sakin" (calm)
"Serkan.." her voice was a soft whisper . Like a gentle caress while her eyes shone with a softness that I wished to see for me, my name on her lips just like this.
Her hand clutched the lapel of my coat even tighter, and between one breathe and the next,my lips were on hers. A sweet,delicious,painful crash of our mouths. She moaned. I swear it was not a part of the script. I deepened the kiss, tangling my fingers in her hair, her body pulled flush against mine, and kissed her the way I have been craving to kiss her all along.
Goddamn ,Hande,you taste so good.
And she only responded in eagerness, digging her nails into my upper back before wrapping her arms around my neck to keep me there,to keep us there.
In a split second,the kiss was broken and she reached out with her left hand and slaped me clear across the face. The sound of her palm hitting my skin echoed inside the elevator , and I swear I heard someone in the room gasp.
My cheek stung like shit.
Hakan had for sure not asked her to slap me for real.
When Hande's eyes went wide and her character's anger at being suddenly kissed by my character waned off, the realization of her way off-script slap consumed her thought but something inside me refused to let her fall out of the moment of this scene.
We had to get this scene right.
Stay with me Handemiyy.Stay with me.
I moved closer to her,my lips just inches from her mouth and her breath turned into pants.
"Sadece dikkatini dağıtmaya çalışıyordum" ( I was just trying to distract you)
" öyle mi?" her eyes challenged mine.
"Evet" I smiled.
"Yüzündeki ifadeyi değiştirebilir misin.." ( Can you change that expression on your face?)
She turned her face away. Her cheeks crimson red.
"Ne ifadesi?" (What expression?) I whispered .
Our close proximity forced her thoughts back to us,back to me, back to this moment. Her eyes searched my face,flitting between my eyes and my lips.
"Senin o gülüşünden bahsediyorum.
Ondan kurtulabilir misin" ( I am talking about that smile of yours. Can you get rid of it?)
I saw the fire in her eyes, as I smirked at her. Or rather it was the doing of our characters.
" Kendimi gel tutamıyorum." (I can't help myself)
" basit sözleşmeyi takip edemezsin ?" (You cannot follow a simple contract?)
" Basit bir sözleşme?" ( A simple contract?) I chuckled.
" En önemli kuralı ihlal ettiğinin farkında mısın?" ( Are you aware that you broke the most important rule?)
"Eda.." I smiled.
Our characters have reached the point in this scene when the heat was palpable.
And no matter how good of an actress she was, she wouldn't be able to deny our chemistry.
"Bir erkekle bir kadın arasındaki yazılı olmayan kuralı anlatabilir miyim?"( Can I describe the unwritten rule between a man and a woman?)
" Ne?"
" Fazla naz aşik usandirir" ( Love gets tired of many whims)
I did exactly what Serkan would do. I closed the distance between us and pressed my lips to hers.
Our mouths tangled with the kind of intensity that could move mountains.She slid her hand into my hair and a moan rolled from her throat to my tongue .

Fuck I could get used to this feeling.
I did not know whether I was Serkan or myself at the moment. It was as if we did not know where our characters ended and we began.
Double fuck.

Someone cleared a throat from outside our bubble and I pulled away from the kiss. Hande looked at me with wide,melted eyes.Her breath came fast and unsteady, and I would be damned if I could look away.
The room stayed quiet for what felt like an eternity untill Hakan broke the silence with several claps of his hands.
"Nice work." He said.His voice jovial."Very nice work both of you.We will be back after lunch break."
I caught her hand before she could slip out of the elevator. I could see her putting up her walls once again. The same indifference masking whatever was troubling her.
Had we gone back go being strangers once again? The one who shared every thing with me, could not even look at my eyes unless it was required.
I knew that she was upset . I could feel it in the air.
"Can we talk?Lütfen?"
She looked at me. For a split second I saw hurt splattered across the face as her eyes bore into mine. But it was gone even before I could figure out the reason behind it.
And she turned her back at me and walked away.
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A/N - I am so so sorry for not posting actively. I have been dealing with some personal issues which kept me away from writing. But now I am back. So I will update my other story " Loving you is a losing game" (EdSer) tomorrow and also I plan on working on a new Hanker fanfic once my ongoing storiesget over.