Love kills Murdoc x Reader

Weird

Y/N POV

December 10th. December 10th. DECEMBER
10TH.

I keep tossing and turning thinking of ways and methods to kill Murdoc. But everything just seems wrong and not enough.

"Fuck fuck fuck FUCK." I sat up in frustration and looked at the my clock

1 am, great.

I threw myself back on the bed and tried my best to get some sleep. I kept thinking about everything and anything.

"I think i'm going to go visit grandma tomorrow." I rolled onto my side and put my headphones in, I played my favorite playlist and closed my eyes.

I didn't sleep much I kept tossing and turning eventually I got tired of it and went on a morning walk.

I grabbed a warm baggy hoodie and some sweatpants. I felt very cozy, I didn't even bother doing my hair. I dank some water before going, if was pretty cold and dark out.

Even if it was 5 am it felt like I was taking a nightly stroll. I inhaled the fresh cool air, it made my nose hurt a bit but I felt oddly calm after.

My mind went clear and I felt the most relaxed I have felt in all my life. It felt like I was floating, but like everything it came to the end when I saw my moms favorite flowers.

I crouched next to the flowers and inhaled the sweet scent and memorys rushed into my head.

A bitter sweet smiled grew across my face, I got up and walked home before I felt worse.

I was back home at around 7 am, I had a few messages but I didn't feel like talking to anyone. I turned off my phone and ate some food.

I looked at myself in the mirror, I didn't want my grandma to see me like this. I washed my face, brushed my teeth and did my hair.

I smiled at myself and made my way over to her house.

"Hello grandma." I gave her a huge hug and a kiss.

"What brings you here so early hun, come in." She hugged me and helped me inside.

"I just wanted to see you thats all." I sat down at the table and my grandma once again had my favorite cookies ready.

"I was going to send you these but you're here now take them." He pushed the baggy towards me and I took one out taking a bite enjoying the sweetness.

"Well what's on your mind hun." she gave me a tender smile, I felt comfortable to tell her everything.

"Well the thing is, lets just say my friend was told to get rid of a shirt she got, she didn't care much for it but once she wore it more she doesn't know how she feels anymore." I guess I wasn't ready to tell her straight forward.

"Well to me it sounds like your friend likes the shirt." she giggled

"What no! She can't like the shirt." I set my head down.

"Well sometimes feelings come out of the blue." She shrugged

"Yeah thats true, the other thing is I keep thinking of mom, I miss her." I looked away holding back some tears.

"Oh well your mother was..a woman, just try to distract yourself." She got up and walked away

"Well hun I hate to do this, but your granny has a little date to go to." She giggled once again and winked at me.

"Alright grandma, have a good date." I gave her a hug and went back home.

" Now what." I turned on the tv and switched from channel to channel.

"Nothing, great." I rolled my eyes and felt my body become sluggish.

"I'll take a sad nap." I closed my eyes and passed out.

Murdoc POV
"They haven't answered yet." I looked down at my phone and nothing.

"I'm guessing you actually like this one." 2D smiled at me

"Ah shut up you idiot." I growled and flipped him off.

I don't know why I care so much.

I grabbed a beer and went to watch some tv. "Hopefully this will help whatever is happening to my head."

I was enjoying the show I was watching, I looked down at my phone and no messages from y/n.

I ran my fingers through my hair, "Y/n." I felt slightly angry and got up.

"They better be there or it's going to be even worse for them." the frown formed into a smirk and I made my way to their house.