Back and Forth

Chapter Eight

   I sit alone at one of the round tables. Everyone is either talking or dancing. After seeing Perrie and Zayn flirt again I wasn't in the mood to be social. So here I am, drinking some type of alcohol, all by my lonesome. I look pathetic.

   All I want to do is go home. If it wasn't for not wanting to make a big scene I would. If I were to tell Zayn I was going home he would freak out. It is like he wants me to be miserable. I don't blame him, though, I probably make him miserable.

   "Why you all alone?" Niall drunkenly laughs and takes a seat by me.

   "Not feeling to well," I shrug.

   "Could it possibly be from that?" he points towards Perrie and Zayn, who are dancing.

   "It's nothing Niall," I shake it off.

   "Why do you let him do that to you?" he asks, confusing me.

   "Do what?"

   "Walk all over you." Niall leans back. "It's not oblivious, Kasie. You two used to be so in love, what happened?"

   "Honestly?" I ask.

   "Honestly."

   "I think he is slowly falling out of love with me."

   "I'm sorry," Niall awkwardly replies.

   "No, it's fine," I assure him. "It's how life works, right?" I look over at Zayn who is staring at Niall and I.

   " I hope not," Niall murmures and stands up. "I'm going to get some food, will you be okay?"

   I nod to Niall and he leaves. I fiddle with my finger before taking another sip of my drink. I just want to sleep. Sleeping makes everything better bacause in your sleep you are letting your mind rest and be stress free. I don't worry about where Zayn is or what my parents think of me. I just simply lie there and dream.

   "Will you dance with me?" Safaa runs up to me.

   "Uh," I begin to tell her no, but she gives me an adorable puppy face. "Why not?"

   "Yay!" she yells and pulls me up.

   I walk with Safaa to where everyone else is dancing. I begin to swirl her around and swing my arms with her. She giggles the whole time which is the cause for my smile. She is seriously so cute. Safaa bumps into whoever is behind her and back into me. I lose my balance trip back onto the people behind me.

   "You trip a lot," Perrie's voice rings through my ears.

   "I'm sorry Kasie," Safaa says and looks like she is about to cry. Everyone is staring at us and I get up.

   "No, it's not your fault," I tell the sad girl.

   "She is just a klutz Safaa," Zayn says angrily and picks her up. Slowly everyone goes back to minding their own business.

  I look down, tears brimming my eyes. I upset him, again. Tricia takes her crying daughter from Zayn and whispers something in his ear. I hear him sigh angrily before he walks over to me. He grips my arm tightly before leading me to the back. Luke looks at me like he wants to help, but doesn't. It's not like he could even if he tried.

   "Why do always do this?" he asks, relatively calm, once we are alone.

   "D-do what?" I nervously ask.

   "Embarrass me!" he screams and I flinch away

   "I didn't mean to, Zayn. I'm sorry!"

   "I shouldn't even be dating someone like you!" he says and all I want to do his go die in a hole.