Back and Forth

Chapter Eighteen

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   The front door opens and shuffling follows. I'm in the living room, staring blankly at the television. I hear Zayn's footsteps as he walks in. Soon they stop followed by a sigh. He begins walking again this time stopping right in front of me. I ignore him and just continue staring straight ahead.

   He sits beside me and grabs my hand. I don't pull away, but I don't embrace it either. I have missed his touch and it takes everything not to attack him in a hug. I know he wants me to acknowledge him and it's killing him that I'm not. I feel somewhat bad, but I hope he feels worse.

   "Kasie," he whispers and I finally pull my hand away. "I'm sorry."

   I stand up without a word and walk upstairs. I lock myself in the bathroom and turn the shower on. I already took one this morning, I'm just running the shower so Zayn won't bother me. I can't talk to him yet. If I do I'll end up breaking down and he will just call me pathetic or something then I'd still forgive him. I need to get myself together before facing him. I need to be as cold as him and act as if I don't care.

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   "Mum, Kasie isn't suppose to see her till next week," I hear Zayn say as I walk down the stairs.

   "I'm sorry, but she was annoying your father," I hear Tricia's voice. Who are they talking about?

   "Now isn't a good time. Kasie is-"

  "Kasie, honey!" Tricia cuts off Zayn when she sees me. I put on the best fake smile I can and walk over to them. Zayn's back is facing me and when I see what he is holding I gasp.

   "She was suppose to be an anniversary present," Zayn sheepishly says. I look at him dumbfounded, not knowing what to say. I blink slowly and look back at Tricia.

   "I, um, I better get going," she kisses Zayn on the cheek and hugs me.

   "Bye, mum," Zayn tells her as she exits the house. I just stand there silent. "Aren't you going to say anything?"

   "What would you like me to say Zayn?" I sigh. "Why did you buy a puppy?"

   "You always say how lonely you are," he shrugs.

   "So you think a dog is going to to help?" I scoff and walk away from him.

   "Why are you acting like this?" he puts the puppy down and follows me.

   "I'm not acting like anything!" I snap at him and turn on the kettle to make me a cup of tea.

   "Yeah, you're acting like a total bitch!" he says and I turn to glare at him.

   "Sorry for not being all lovey dovey with the a guy who fucking cheated on me!" I yell in disbelief.

   "I apologized! What else do you want me to do!" he screams.

   "Don't fucking talk to me!" I scream just as loud.

   "Thats kind of hard considering you live with me!"

   "Really because it didn't seem hard every other time you've ignored me!"

   "Why can't you let things go!?" he asks.

   "I swear you're so stupid!" I turn away from him. He obviously doesn't like it since he grabs my arm harshly and turns me back around.

   "You blame this all on me, but look at you!" he screams directly in my face.