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Background Info (Part 2)

Josh Pov

Mully. The name is beautiful. Mully is my best friend and crush. Ever since I met him, I've had a crush on him. The dark brown eyes and hair. He's always been taller than me, and constantly teases me about it. The only secret I haven't shared with him is that I'm gay and like him. Like like him. Ok, who am I kidding? I love him! Oh, wow. That's the first time me saying it out loud. I love Mully. Mully. My best friend who's gay. My best friend. My friend. Who is gay. Mullen. I have no idea if he likes me back. Probably not. He seems to be into hot guys with muscles and a chiseled face. Not a short, stubby guy, with stubble and a beanie. He always likes to point them out to me when we're out and about. It's always so hard to keep quiet about being gay. There have been points where I almost have. Maybe somebody saying,

"You're not gay! Why are you defending them?"

"Yes I-" and then I would stop and rethink my wording. "My friend is and I'm standing up for him."

There is only one person who knows that I'm gay and that's my mother. It came out accidentally at a family dinner when I had a bit too much wine, and no one but her was in the room. I said something about Chris Hemsworth being very hot, and she asked if I was gay, and I couldn't hide it anymore. I begged her not to tell anyone else, and she obliged. She's not disappointed in me, she actually supports me. But even her doesn't know that I love my best friend. Gah, still weird. I've been working for the past 3 years to tell him I'm gay and I like him. Well, love him. I can't find the right time. There's always people around, and I don't know how he'll react, but hopefully soon. I don't know how much longer I can hold it in. I feel like I'm bursting at the seems. It's all going to come out soon, and when it does, everything is coming.

Ok last part of this tonight. Probably only one part tomorrow, since I have a funeral to attend. I'll get one more part of As Fate Would Have it out tonight. And I'll be doing a spin off of it about Mully and Josh, and how they dealt/deal with it. Ok hope you guys liked it! Luv you guys!