Let me in! ( Yukio x reader )

Chapter 6. Helper

⚠️ WARNING THIS CHAPTER DOES CONTAIN HEAVY MENTIONS OF SUICIDE, IF ANY OF THAT TRIGGERS YOU PLEASE SKIP THIS CHAPTER⚠️

His glance was cold, colder than ice as the younger Okumura twin taught his class at the cram school. It had been three days since Yukio and the others went to save Izumo and luckily everyone came back alive. You were told about the horrors the students faced as they had to fight the Illuminati and its undead forces head-on. You sat in the back of the classroom as you stared at your fellow exorcist. Since Yukio came back you hadn't had a chance to talk to Yukio about the notes you found on his desk, but you were determined to confront the boy and try to help him the best you could.

This lesson seemed like any normal day but one thing was missing and that thing was Shima. Even with the determination of Rin and the others, Shima hadn't come back to the true cross and if you were being honest you suspect that he wouldn't come back at all. You were snapped back into reality as the door to the classroom slammed open showing a nervous Shima at the doorway. "Uh- hi guys" the class went silent, even Yukio looked surprised as Shima walked into the room and sat down.

The room stayed silent for a few more seconds before it burst out into yelling and screaming at Shima which somehow quickly turned back into trust and friendship. You were amazed as you watched the children so quickly accept their friend again even after the pain he had caused. Of course, Shima couldn't still fully be trusted but at least the class felt whole again.

As the lesson ended and the students left you got up from your seat and walked up to Yukio who was wiping his teachings off the backboard behind him. "That was weird wasn't it?" You asked trying to start a conversation with Yukio "yeah it was, but at least he's back." Yukio didn't look at you ask he spoke but only looked down at his desk.

"Do you need help writing any new lesson plans boss?" You smile trying to lighten the mood "don't call me boss, But I  do need help, let's do it in here instead of going back to the dorms cause I think Rin is having Suguro over." You nod happily that Yukio wanted to work with you. "You relax for a bit I'll go get some food then we can get started." And with that, you left Yukio alone with nothing but his thoughts.

As you made your way back to the classroom your mind went back to the things you read in Yukio's notes, your mind was filled with the thoughts and ideas of what Yukio could do with the power he had. You slowly opened the door to see Yukio at his desk reading manga his eyes still cold with sadness. Even if he did look sad you softly smiled because he was finally relaxing for once.

Even if it was your job to manipulate and keep Yukio away from the truth you still cared for him and wanted to make sure he was okay. Even if you didn't want to lie to the exorcist you didn't want to put the academy and the Vatican in jeopardy.

As Yukio noticed you open the door he quickly put away his manga as the blood rose to his cheeks embarrassed that you saw him in a more valuable state. "O-oh hi." He smiles which surprised you because it seemed genuine for once. "I got food as promised so dig in." You handed Yukio his food as you sat at his desk looking through upcoming assessments and tasks that you had to write lessons for.

You and Yukio begun working, you enjoyed the time you spent with Yukio. He often seemed like a different person when he wasn't teaching but he still always had that shine of sadness in his eyes. You looked up at the boy to see his messy hair brushing over his face as he looked down at his papers. Your heart quickly started to pound as you realized that this was a perfect chance to bring up the things you found in Yukio's room.

"Hay Yukio can I talk to you about something?" You ask your heart still pounding and your palms starting to become sweaty. "Go ahead Y/N." Yukio looks up at you putting down the pen in his hand. "S-so when you were gone I looked in your room, and you can be mad at me I completely understand but I found-" Yukio cut you off with a loud side "you found my notes didn't you?" You slowly nod making Yukio's face turn red in anger. "Look okay maybe I've tried to take my life a few times. But it wasn't for the reasons you think. And I'm allowed to have secrets so I don't have to tell you anything." Your eyes widen as you realized how serious Yukio was.

"B-but Yukio I'm your partner and I'm here to help. I just want to make sure you are okay. You can t-talk to me. And if you are struggling through something to make you do this I can help and you know I can!" You stand up slamming your hand on the desk getting slightly angry but you quickly die down regretting what you just did.

"Y/N I don't have to tell you anything." Yukio starts to get angry himself as he takes off his glasses and pinches the bridge of his nose. "B-but you do Yukio, you have so many people counting on you here. What about your students, your friends, your brother!? What will they do if your attempts work? We can get through this Yukio, You were put on this world to help people so please let me help you." Your breathing became heavy as you watch Yukio's eyes start to glimmer with tears.

"N-no I was put on this world to become a weapon. Don't you get it Y/N? I'm not human I'm a monster. I-I-" Yukio begun to break down, tears rolled down his cheeks as his glasses began to fog.

"B-back when we were fighting the impure king my eye flared up with Satan's fire when I was fighting Todo, and I think Satan is watching the world through my eye and protecting me...my attempts were testing the extent of this protection. And even when I was at the Illuminati base my eye once again burst into flames when Lucifer asked me to join Him." Yukio rubbed his eyes as he began to settle down.

"Y-Yukio I-" you didn't know what to say but you did begin to cry "I-I'm sorry Yukio I shouldn't have pressed you to say anything but please know that I-I'm here to help you and pull you out of any trouble you get into okay?" The boy slowly nods as you wipe the tears with your sleeve. You knew that you should probably report this to the Vatican but you decided otherwise you didn't care about your job all you cared about right then and there was Yukio.

Once you and Yukio had settled down Yukio grabbed the pen from his desk and begun working again, you looked at him confused but before you could say anything Yukio smiled at you a happy smile which made your heart flutter "let's get back to Work Y/N we can talk more about this later today...but thank you."

You felt yourself become a flustered mess just by hearing Yukio say thank you. You quickly composed yourself and got back to work. You were excited you felt as if you had seen a side of Yukio he hadn't shown to anyone before. This made you feel special so at that moment you made it your mission to help the youngest Okumura twin in any way you could.