The planets bend between us

Chapter 34

She used her keys and opened the door. She immediately felt the warmth of her apartment. She felt almost like the frost on her skin was melting. As she walked further into the apartment, she was met by her girlfriend, with a concerned frown on her face.

"Bloody hell, Em? What happened to you? You're freezing!" Remi took Emily's wet jacket off and held her hand as the profiler darted her eyes away from her girlfriend. She brought her to the couch and wrapped a blanket around her. "What happened? Are you okay?"

Emily didn't know how to reply. She wanted to tell Remi everything. She wanted to be open with her. She wanted to be better than she had been. She opened her mouth and whispered, "I walked home. Hard day."

"Oh," Remi said and kissed Emily's cheek. "I'm sorry, darling. But I have good news to cheer you up!"

Emily frowned. She wanted to tell Remi the rest, but it was obvious to her that Remi's mind was on something very different. "What is it?"

"After I ate at that Mongolian restaurant that you don't like with Jordan, I got a call from the foster agency. A family wants to adopt Maia!"

The profiler felt a wave of nausea and she ran to the bathroom. After a few minutes, her whole stomach was empty. She flinched away from her girlfriend's touch.

"Em... is it the news...?"

The ambassador's daughter didn't know how to reply. She apparently saw the news as everything but good. She lied and shook her head. "I don't feel well. I'm going to go to bed. I just need to go to bed."

"Oh," Remi said again, not knowing how to help her girlfriend. "Okay. I'll help you to bed."

"No!" Emily almost yelled. She lowered her voice and said, "I mean, I'm good. I'm just going to go." She got up from the bathroom floor and took off her shoes.

She walked to the bed and took some sleeping pills. And then took some more. She crawled under the warm covers and in the back of her mind, she hoped that she never had to get out of the sheets. She wanted to go to sleep and never wake up to this nightmare.

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Emily threw the rocks at Matthew's window and waited for him to open it. After a few seconds, he opened it, looking agitated.

"What the hell, Em? It's 3:00 A.M. and my parents are going to kill me if they find out that you're here." She didn't reply. He waited until his eyes adjusted to the darkness. And when they did, he saw that Emily wasn't okay. Her face was red and her cheeks looked wet. He was officially concerned. He had never seen Emily cry. "Move. I'm coming out."

After Emily got out of his way, Matthew hopped out of his window. He walked up to Emily and noticed right away the smell of cigarettes and liquor. But this wasn't a new scent for her. He didn't even flinch. He took her hand and led her to a bench a few blocks away. They sat down in silence.

"I'm pregnant," Emily whispered as soft as the wind in their hair. She let the tears flow down her cheeks. She wasn't even afraid for him to see her this way.

Matthew was speechless. He felt empathy for her. Then sadness. Then anger and frustration. "John..."

"Doesn't want anything to do with me," Emily told him, her voice shaking.

Matthew's fists curled up into a ball of madness. "He's an idiot, Em. He'll see. We'll show him that he's being stupid."

She shook her head slowly, her lips quivering. "I don't- It's my fault. He doesn't want anything to do with my mistake."

"Your mistake? Em, you both did this! It isn't just your fault."

Emily ignored his comment and said, "I can't tell my mom. She hates me enough already. I- I don't have anybody. I'm so scared."

He gaped at her. He had never, ever, heard Emily Prentiss say that she was scared. He wrapped his arms around her and murmured in her ear, "I'm here. I'm here for you. You have me. It'll all be okay."