Your Not Alone

9. Damaged

I was going through so much emotions, i cried in silence everyday and night, i would barley be able to focus on school like i use to, my bedroom and my bathroom was my place i went to cry every night.

I never knew how bad a person could hurt you. I was so damaged i felt like it wasn't a day i couldn't stop crying and hiding the fact that i was hurting deep down. I just wanted to be happy again but i didn't know how to be that way.

I was crushed, i would even cry at school out of no where and when someone hugged me i couldn't do anything but cry harder i felt so alone.

All i was needing was for someone to hold me and tell me everything was alright. I was so weak after crying, my eyes would be so puffy when i was done and all i wanted to do was sleep after.

I couldn't eat some days so i would starve myself, I would allow sad songs to get to me songs that would describe how i felt, which only made it worst but that's all i knew.

I just felt like I was always giving my last and everything and that wasn't enough for what i felt I deserved i thought it was love but i was proven that it wasn't i was extremely hurt. I started feeling myself becoming distant from everything.