Your Not Alone

21. Summer of 2018

After graduating high school being my biggest accomplishment. I was extremely happy. But i begin to do things out of stress and worry i started drinking and smoking more than ever.

I have never done this before and i done these things, because it was the only things that allow me to be stress free and not have to worry about things.

I felt that this was my way of escaping from things i was going through. As bad as i felt doing these things, i still didn't care because i loved that it allowed me to not think about things. I wanted to try it because i wanted to see what it was like to do it and when i tried it, i enjoyed it.

I knew that it wasn't right for me and i was so disappointed at times for doing this because, this wasn't me and i knew it wasn't for me.

My mom didn't know that i were doing these things until i fully told her i was. Besides anything though My mother already had a feeling that i was, she was just waiting for me to finally say something.

She didn't judge me at all for doing these things, because she always told me she done it before but she just didn't want any of her children to fall in those foot steps.