Your Not Alone

4. Shy

  In school at the time I didn't have too many friends, i had a few but I rarely talked. Me and school wasn't the best of friends. I was always shy and never liked having to go up to do projects or anything dealing with talking in front of people.

I didn't have the most confidence then. Sometimes I felt as if i wasn't suppose to be apart of what anyone could do, at times i would sit by myself and not talk to anyone then.

I wasn't the best student at some subjects in school and that was something that always got to me. I would tell my teacher i couldn't do it and I wanted to give up so bad.

I would sit there everyday and wish  i could be like the smart ones who knew how to do it and didn't need help. Sometimes i would feel like a failure because it took me longer to solve a problem or do anything before anybody else.

I would be nervous to go up to present projects cause I was shy. I didn't want to mess up on anything. I was always the first one in class most of the time I would see my friends for a little then go to class. Music was my go to every day I would either listen to something soothing or my gospel music to get me started while in school or before.