Silence | Karlnap

Chapter 7

I woke up.

I looked at the alarm clock, 3:26 AM. The dream felt so real. I wish it was real.

Im a coward, I wish I had the courage I had just then.

The room felt colder then before. I grabbed my phone, opening messages once again. Alex is the only way I can let myself feel emotions, he's always there for me. Even if its late at night he will still make an effort to text me.

He understands how I feel.

'Hey Alex! Can we talk about something later? :)'

I cant talk to him right now, it's extremely late at night.

'Yeah! :) Just message me when you want to.'

I get up out of bed, slowly walking out of the room and entering the kitchen. I make myself a glass of water, trying to wake myself up.

I barely have any energy.

I put my earbuds in, opening spotify. I click play on my playlist.

I listened to the lyrics, they were calming and peaceful. The dimly lit kitchen was so empty, I could barely see a thing.

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It was around 9am, I didn't ever go back to sleep. I spent most of my time scrolling on twitter, or watching youtube videos.

I see Nick walk into the living room, he looks over at me.

"Why are you up so early?" he asks.

"I couldn't sleep, so I just stayed up." I say, as he walks to get a glass of water.

I look at my phone screen, maybe I should talk to Alex now. I get up, "I'll be right back!" I walk to the room i'm staying in closing the door behind me.

'Can we call? :)' I send.

'Yeah!' Alex responds, I quickly call him.

"Hello Karl!" Alex says.

"Hi Alex!" I respond.

"What is it you wanted to talk to me about?" he questions.

"Last night I had a dream, it felt so real. I thought it was real. I could feel, and see things.. I was confused. I woke up and didn't know what was going on." I try not to stutter, the thought of the dream makes me a but shaky.

"What was it about?" he asks again.
I realize this is just like last week, its like the same dream but a different story.

Im selfish.

Nick has other friends.

He doesn't like you.

He hates you.

Your too clingy.

The thoughts come back,

"Hello?"

I snap back into reality.

"Sorry, it was about me and Nick again. I wasn't myself, I wasn't as nervous and shaky. I told Nick how I felt, but then I woke up. I hate these dreams, they trick my mind. They make me believe they're real, and it makes me want to scream." My voice is quiet, I don't want Nick to hear me again.

"I understand, what if you just told Nick? Even if he doesn't feel the same way you two can still be great friends." Alex suggests.

"What if-"

"Karl I promise he will understand don't worry." Alex assures, cutting me off.

"Okay, I will try." I say.

I sigh, "Okay bye Karl!" Alex says.

"Bye."

I hang up.

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Sorry this didn't get out sooner, I've recently fixed my sleep schedule. Im also getting a pc soon so yeah! :) Update soon.