Silence | Karlnap

Chapter 11 | Part 2

//karls pov
//cursing

I dont even remember what the doctor even said that day. It has been 3 weeks, surprisingly my hallucinations haven't been taunting me.

I streamed recently, to my surprise people showed up. I still have to show up in Mr Beast videos, I actually need to go to work tomorrow.

I wouldn't say i'm better, but I feel like my old self..

Maybe is was streaming? I dont know. All I know is Nick is still here, I have my friends, and my mental health is okay.

But this doesnt mean life will be amazing.

Life will never be amazing.

Life is horrible.

My friends have no idea what i've done, yes Alex knows but he doesn't really understand.

He almost completely cut me out.

But stayed with me.

Thankfully.

I need time, we all do. Sometimes life is worth waiting for. But maybe waiting isnt worth my outcome..

Maybe I should give up?

No.

No- I cant.

Not no-

"Karl? What are you doing in your old room?"

Nicks voice scared me half to death.

"Huh! Oh, just thinking.."

"Oh, what ya thinking about?"

"Life?"

"Hey Nick..?"

He looked at me.

"Yes Karl?"

"What did that doctor say to you?"

"I cant tell you Karl."

"I dont want to."

Nick's expression became stiff.

"Oh."

"Its better for you to not know.."

"Oh, okay.."

I sat up, him walking away.

I looked at myself, maybe i should just restart?

Restart myself.

Forget everything.

Maybe ill feel better..

Im aware this is short, writers block goes brr