Silence | Karlnap

Chapter 21

Karls POV
Everyday my fears get worse, every time she pops up into my head I think of the times I saw her with Nick. The things she did.

The broken glass.

The note.

The time Nick would stay as late as 4am at her house.

The FaceTime.

The messages.

Everything.

She scared me.

I make sure Nick is by me everyday, near me, in the house, telling me where he is going, anything to know he is safe. I feel a bit clingy, but I don't want him hurt. I love him.

When I go out places alone I sometimes see people that look like her, I stare. My body tenses up.

Spring is slowly approaching, but it feels like winter just came. It often rained, leaving me inside with nothing to do. I have been slacking a lot with work. I barely stream, and if I do its just so I can actually make some money.

Most of my time is used worrying, I hate it. I spend less time with Nick, then I do thinking about stupid things.

I still text Alex everyday, I haven't got the courage to tell him about my hallucinations.

My phone is never charged, I stay up until 3am almost every night endlessly scrolling.

I dont know if Nick has noticed, but he definitely hasn't said anything.

"Karl?"

"Hello?"

"Huh- oh Hi."

"You okay? You zoned out for so long."

I missed talking to Alex, on call at least. My mind hasn't thought much about him in a while.

"Sorry, just thinking.."

"Something you want to talk about?"

"No, its fine."

The screen is empty, no tabs, no games running, nothing.

Why do I keep doing this?

I put my head in my hands, sighing. If only time would stop again, just like the times I was with Nick. The times I didn't worry about Amelia.

The only thing lighting up my room is my monitor, and pc. I wore a sweater, and black jeans. Lazy, but enough so I look decent. I made a tweet on twitter apologizing about my absence. I just said I was busy.

Yeah, busy. Spending my days thinking about the 'what ifs' in life.

Alex continues to talk, I just listen. He mentions Nick a few times, saying they have been talking a lot more then often.

"Yeah,  has anything been happening on the SMP?"

"Not really, but my lore stream is soon."

"I'll definitely be there to watch! I've been waiting for this for over a week."

I smile, I know how much work Alex puts in his streams.

I hear footsteps, I know its Nick.

He pops into my room, "Hey, do you wanna go to the mall?"

"Yeah, sure."

"Alright, i'm gonna go change!"

"Alright."

I tell Alex goodbye, and turn off my pc. I fix my hair, and grab my phone.

I walk downstairs, and see Nick waiting for me.

We walk to the car, and drive to the mall.

I wont lie, I was nervous. I haven't been outside in so long. There is a possibility of me seeing Amelia, of Nick seeing Amelia.

If Nick sees her i'm afraid he will panic, and get scared.

The mall will be crowded, everyone will be looking. Staring.

We arrived at the mall rather quickly, I get out the car slowly entering the large place.

Groups of teenagers, adults with their children, and workers are walking from place to place.

My heart races, I hated this.

I feel Nick grab my hand, "Karl, its okay don't worry.".

I look at him, and give him a soft smile.

We slowly walk, there was no destination. We just continues to walk as Nick softly spoke.

I saw teenage girls staring, making a disgusted face. I tried to ignore them, but it was hard. There were a few that smiled, and waved when I looked at them.

The mall had over 3 stories, each with a couple stores and seating areas. (Lol when u go into a mall and theres random seats in the middle of the floor when u walk in)

I kept seeing girls similar to Amelia, but they definitely weren't her. I would know.

"Do you want to go to the book store?"

"Sure."

Nick begins to walk to the escalator, still holding my hand.

When we enter the cold breeze of the stores AC hits me. Its surprisingly cold. We walked through the isles, looking at different books.

Sometimes picking then up to take a closer look, I didn't read much but I know Nick did.

I stood close beside him, holding onto his arm softly. I hated being out in public, and Nick knew it. He made sure I was near him at all times, no matter what.

Nick picked out a few books, and walked to the register.

"Will this be all for you today?"

"Yup!"

I look at the cashier.

"Is this your special someone here?"

She points to me.

"Oh, uh yeah. Heh."

I smile.

"Your one lucky person!"

"Yeah."

The cashier finishes ringing up our things, and Nick pays.

We decide its time to leave, there wasn't much time until the mall closed anyway.

When we left the mall, and got in the car I pulled out my phone.

No new notifications.

I sigh.

"Hey, Karl do you plan on streaming tonight?"

"I mean, I could if you wanted me to."

"We can play Monopoly, or Gartic Phone?"

"We can play Monopoly with Quackity, george, dream, and Bad. Maybe Ranboo too, he usually plays with us sometimes."

"Yeah!"