Knot with you

third knot

Lucky me that the wedding is not yet started.. i run to the nearest restroom to change my dress .. hindi ako nakapag bihis sa condo dahil sa mga weird na pag babago sa unit ko.. I'm Alli's made of honor and for Pete's sake ayoko naman mawalan ng maid of honor ang best friend ko..

I fix myself faster as I can, i put my things back to the trunk of my car and walk faster to reach Alli's position.. Alli really look so gorgeous on her wedding gown.. sinadya pa niya ako sa Melbourne para lang gawan siya ng gown.. but of course even Ethan didn'tknew a single detail about me....

"Hi gorgeous, smile I'm here, congrats" she was shock seeing me beside her..

"Oh my God best.. you came" she immediately hug me.. i really miss her for seven years siya lang ang kinontak ko dito sa Pinas

"Sshh.. masisira make up mo.. ganda ng gown mo"

She glare at me " gown ko lang talaga maganda? Sige na ikaw gumawa nito eh" we both chuckled

"Bingi lang.. i told you a while ago that you're gorgeous.. jan ka na nga " nag lakad na ko patungo sa mga entourage

"Best please wag kang aalis agad" kahit iba ang plano ko umoo nalang ako kahit iba ang plano ko.. i have no choice nakiusap na eh

Abot- abot na kaba ang nararamdaman ko, excitment,happiness, fear and angry.. i bite my lower lip , hindi ito ang hinanda ko .. mula dito sa pwesto ko tanaw na tanaw ko si Tristan na nakikipag biruan at nakikipag tawanan kila Ethan at Damon.. bigla akong nakaramdam ng inggit , noong panahong kami ang ikakasal walang audience kundi magulang lang namin at ilang businessman ,no grand wedding, no grand reception and of course no honeymoon, can you believe at our first night Tris brought a slut on our house and fuck her all night, amazing right..?.. Tristan do that coz he was force to marry me dahil iyon ang naka kontrata sa company nila para ipag patuloy ng investors ang pag invest he need to be married at the age of 21..

Piniling ko ang ulo ko at nag simula ng maglakad sa mahabang red carpet na nakalatag sa pino at maputing buhangin ng beach.. i can feel the cold breeze lalo na sa suot kong damit ..

I envy Alli , lucky her Ethan loves her the way she wanted to be loved ..unti unti kong nararamdaman ang pag patak ng aking luha, part of me is happy while the other part is hurt.. napatingin ako sa gawi nila TRistan and i can literally say his jaw dropped..

I bitterly smile.. let the revenge begins my sweet husband

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"Alliah Marie De Jesus and Ethan Lee Strafford have you came here freely and without reservation to give yourselves to each other in marriage?" - priest

E&A: yes your excistence.. i do

"Will you honor each other as man and wife for the rest of your lives?" - priest

E&A: yes your excistence .. I do

"will you accept children lovingly from God and bring them up according to the law of Christ and his Church?" Priest

E&A: yes your excistence i do

Ethan and Alli stare to each other and sincerly smile.. you can actually feel the spark between them

"I Ethan Lee Strafford take you Alliah Marie De Jesus for my lawful wife.. to have and to hold from this day forward , for better ,for worse, for richer for poorer in sickness and in health, i will not leave you and i will love you.. until death do us part" Ethan wipe his tears.. a tear of joy

"I Alliah Marie De Jesus take you Ethan Lee Strafford to be my lawful husband, to have and to hold from this day  forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, i will take care of you and soon to be children of us..  i will love you until death do us part" the guess claps their hand hindi ko mapigilan ang aking luha sa pagpatak  ..

"By the power that God invested me.. i now pronounce you-" ethan pull Alli and kiss her.. "im not yet done mr. Strafford" priest said..

"Sorry po.. excited" we chuckled hanggang ngayon pasaway parin si Ethan

"I now pronounce you husband and wife you may now kiss your bride"- father

Ethan slowly removes Alli's vail.. his hand is shaking i can see how ethan really adore and love my bestfriend.. he kiss her with full of sincerity,loyalty and of course love..

I sniff and wipe my tears.  Those feelings that i never felt for the entire years of my life  .. siguro nga hindi lahat ng tao ay sinuwerte para makaramdam ng totoong pagmamahal  ..and sadly im one of them..

The guess proceed to the hall where reception is.. i planned to go there later, i want to feel the night first and i want to be alone.. i walk straight to the beach.. ang payapa na ng dagat there are tiny waves that added to the beauty of the beach.. 

Napatingin ako sa mabituing langit.. it feels like i can reach them but seems so far.. parang si Tristan.. he's so near yet so far,agad akong binalot ng mga mumunting alaala.. napapikit ako ng mariin at naisuklay ko ang kamay ko sa aking buhok ng maalala ko ang mga araw na magkaibigan pa kami ni Damian when were 13years old

I went to their house because he's sick .. his mom called me and ask me to accompany him because they were leaving that night with ate Dione ..

Knock .. knock

Kumatok ako sa kwarto niya..

"Come in.. ikaw na ba yan Zea?" Sigaw nito mula sa loob.. he's the only one who calle me that way

"Yahp.." pinihit ko na ang knob at wala ito sa kama "where are you Damie?" Tanong ko (damie from his second name dame)

"Here sa veranda.. come here" sinunod ko naman ang sinabi niya.. agad umihip ang simoy ng hangin sa manipis kong balat..

"Whoo its so cold.. bakit anjan ka? You're sick Damie" tumawa ito ng pagak  ..

"Its okay.. higa ka dito" humiga ako sa tabi niya.. we are now seeing the beauty of the sky

"Nice .. the sky was so beautiful" ngiting ngiti kong sabi sabay tanaw sa mabituwing kalangitan

"Yeah so beautiful.. no.. gorgeous"
Dahan dahan akong napatingin kay Dami , napasinghap ako ng mag tagpo ang aming mga mata.. what the? Biglas bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko and i can't take it anymore kaya umupo nalang ako..

Pinagtabi ko ang mga tuhod ko at inakap ito ng aking braso, tinukod ko ang baba ko dito.. calm down heart bulong ko sa utak ko

"Hey what's wrong Zea?" Tanong nito sabay hawak sa balikat ko.. i stiff

"N-nothing.. ahh.. aren't you cold? nilalamig ako" pag-iwas ko sa tanong niya... nabigla ako ng bigla niya kong hatakin pahiga

"Ahh.. Dami.. ano ka ba" sigaw ko dito dahil sa bigla.. "ano bang ginagawa mo huh?"

"Inaakap ka.. di ba obvious? Body heat" he wrap his arms around me.. bali nakaunan ako sa bisig niya .. dubdub.. dubdub..

"Duh you're so funny.. malamang body heat talaga ang init mo eh" i fake a laugh para hindi niya mapansin ang paninigas ko

"Ofcourse.. im really hot" we just chuckled

Akala ko nakatulog na siya dahil hindi na niya nakuhang mag salita pa ulit, pumikit nalang ako dahil nakaramdam na ko ng antok , pero nag salita itong muli

"Are you asleep? "I didn't respond
"Thanks Zea, even im  arrogant, and please take good care of yourself, maybe this will be the last time that we'll have time like this, i love you  .. but i more than in love with Pheme at ayoko siyang masaktan,, just take care" at that moment my tears fell down "and when you are sad just look at the sky, remember that i'm always here"

Nabalik ako sa realidad ng may mag salita sa likuran ko..

"P-phoebe? Oh my God Phoebe ikaw nga!"...