Knot with you

fifth knot

i run fast as i can para makaalis sa hall at marating ang shore

"Ahhhhhhhh...this is so unfair " i shout out of my lungs

"Ano yung gulo doon Phoebe?" Napalingon ako sa nagsalita at napaatras ako sa bigla... i was stiff on how he burst out

"E-ethan.. ahh n-not what you think.. i mean yeah nag karoon lang ng konting problema and i'm sorr—"

"Sorry? You ruined my event.. ! Phoebe can't you see.." minowestra niya ang kamay niya paturo sa hall "naeskandalo ang mga bisita ko..and now you're just telling me sorry?" Halatang frustrated na si Ethan dahil sa kaguluhang nangyari

"I'm sorry Ethan and i didn't mean it all..that's why i left that hall because Tristan—"

"If you didn't came here, walang gulong mangyayari dito.. as far as i know I didn't even invited you here cause were not even friends"

My jaw dropped.. pakiramdam ko napasali ako sa ice bucket challange hindi lang isang beses kundi paulit ulit akong binuhusan gamit ang isang drum.. my knees and hands are shaking as well as my lips are trembling.. i cannot utter a single word, it was so painful hearing that were not even friends infact he's the one of my good friend way back then.. i bit my lip to stop me from pouring my traitor tears, utang na loob Phoebe pitong taon mo binuo ang pagkatao mo kaya please wag kang umiyak.. bulong ko sa utak ko..

"Do you think mababago ng sorry mo ang nangyari doon. Akala mo ganun—"

"Oo na Ethan its my fault, oo na kasalanan ko na, oo na ako na ang nagsimula kahit hindi mo naman narinig tumaas ang boses ko sa lugar na yon, sige na ako na, all my fault! Damn it blame me until you want , but i diddn't expect you will say were not even friends now i know" i cut him and slowly shook my head for disbelief .. aalis na sana ako ng may matigas na boses ang pumigil sa'akin

"Where do you think you're going Phoebe?" Matigas at galit na sabi ni daddy Drew.. i stare blankly at him.. siguro kung ako pa ang Phoebe 7 years ago hindi ko kakayanin tumitig sa kanya, cause i'm weak before

"I'm going home sir Strafford, so if you'll excuse me sir mauna na po ako" kahit umiinit ang dugo ko sa presensya nilang lahat i remain respectful.. tinalikuran ko sila at lumakad palayo

"bastos ka.. don't ever turn your back to me" napasinghap ako sa muli nitong pag sigaw.. i look up the sky and close my eyes ..

"Ako pa po ang bastos? I said it in a nice way and in a good manner sir" i face them "you tell me you're not my dad so why i should call you dad right sir? So sir i need to leave i still have important matters to deal with tonight sir"

"What? Where are you going Azalea? To your filthy post man huh? Babalik ka dito after 7 years para guluhin ako.. bullshit ka bitch" pasigaw na sabi ni Tristan.. agad kumulo ang dugo ko at umakyat sa ulo ko pakiramdam ko umaapoy ang muka ko sa galit

"Fuck you ka Tristan.. bago mo ko pag salitaan ng may kabit bitch o kung ano pa man.. tumingin ka muna sa salamin baka may nakalimutan kang taong dapat pag sabihan niyan bago ako?" He became pale. All of them creased their brows except Alli . now i finally realized they don't know even a single detail about what happened to us years ago based on their reactions..

"Easy Mr. C.E.O you look so pale.. nakakita ka ng multo? Well this ghost in front of you will easily fade after you sign my annulment paper, when you do it so, your secrets will remain and never revealed to your family" hindi ko na hinintay ang magtanong pa sila, tinalikuran ko na ito at umalis sa lugar na iyon..

After all these years wala silang alam tungkol sa totoong pangyayari samin ni Trista, he keep it to his self, agad bumuhos ang luha ko pag sakay ko ng kotse .. this is all shits i'm done on these shits!

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(TRISTAN DAME POV)

i was froze on what she said, hindi ko inakalang sasabihin niya yun kaharap ang pamilya ko

"Tristan anong ibig sabihin ni Phoebe?" Kalmadong tanong ni mommy saki hindi ko alam kung dapat ko bang sabihin sakanila

"I don't  know mom, " i lied cause in the first place its all my fucking fault

"So bakit nag file ng annulment si Phoebe?" Ate Dione ask. 

"Hindi ko alam baka may kabit talaga siya" nagkibit balikat lang ako pero may sampal na humagupit sa pisngi ko..

"Bullshit! Sorry to intrude" Alli angerly said..

"Alli—" awat ni Ethan

"Gago ka.. kung hindi mo kayang umamin sa harap ng pamilya mo.. fuck you wag mo ng siraan pa ang bestfriend ko.. don't you think hindi ko alam ang lahat even a single detail Tristan?.. fuck you alam ko lahat!" Alli run away from us mas lalo silang naguluhan sa sinabi nito

Napaluhod ako sa kagaguhang nagawa ko.

"Tristan tell us the truth.. anak anong totoo?" Nagmamakaawang sabi ni mommy

I shook my head " no mmy.. please leave me alone" i heard their sigh.. hindi na sila nagsalita at iniwan nlang ako

"Fuck you ka Tristan.. you're not a real man!" Bulong ko sa sarili ko.. kasalanan ko to.. maybe i really deserve to be left by the woman i love the most, nagkamali ako noon at ngayon muli kong dinadagdagan ang kasalanan ko sa nag iisang babaeng minamahal ko..akala ko noon kapag nag kita kaming muli ay nakalimutan na niya ang mga nakaraan namin.. 7 years is too long para makalimot but maybe i hurt her too much..

It sounds like gay pero hindi ko mapigilan ang luha ko sa mga pangyayari ngayon

8 years ago ng kinamuhian ko si Zea dahil kinasal ako sakanya , i was so devastated that time because I marry the woman i didn't love in romantic way, Phoebe Azalea used to be my bestfriend then but when Pheme came into the picture i forgot that i have a bestfriend named Phoebe.. simula noon naging gago na ako...