Knot with you

sixth knot

Phoebe pov

As i lay down on my bed i look up to the ceiling blankly.. i breathe out and put my arms on my forehead

Agad bumalik ang mga mumunting alaala ko sa nakaraan ,

Flashbacks

"Phoebe asan na yung mga files na pinaayos ko sayo?" Nakakarinding sigaw ng asawa ko mula sa study room niya..

"Ikaw tong nag ta-trabaho sakin mo inuutos lahat" i murmured as i walk through the hall

"Phoebe ano ba napaka kupad mo" umirap nalang ako at pumasok sa mini office niya.. I was defenetely shock when i saw him kissing another bitch on his swivel chair.. gusto ko siyang hiklatin at sipain sa kanyang pag kalalaki ng matigil ang pag lalandi niya

"What the F ! Are you nuts? Hindi ka ba marunong kumatok?" Muli niyang bulyaw napailing at bugtong hininga nalang ako, how can i still bear his attitude? Halos pitong buwan ko nang pinagdudusahan ang kasal namin

He never went home without bringing bitch ,they're making this house as a motel, nakakainit ng dugo pero kaylangan kong magtiis coz i fucking love him, others say's im a masochist.. eh ano mahal ko siya

"What bitch are you going to stand there? Can't you see were making love here... babe she's disturbing us can you fire your nany?" Malanding sabi nung babaeng kasama niya, agad akong nanliit sa sinabi nito.. am i look like a nany?

"I'm sorry master , nasa drawer po ang files na pinaayos niyo sakin.. pasensya na po , " i smirked and turn my back to him.. unti unti kong nararamdaman ang pag patak ng luha ko.. how can i endure this pain?

Tuluyan na kong lumabas ng kwarto at patakbong tinungo ang sarili kong kwarto, hindi ko na napigilan ang pag hagulgol ko

"Ang tanga tanga mo Phoebe masokista ka!" I wipe my tears and lay down on my bed, itinaklob ko ang comforter sa buo kong katawan at isinubsob ang mukha ko sa unan.. kaylan kaya ako matututunang pahalagahan muli ni Tristan. Like what he've done way back then when were young.. when he's not yet in loved with my sister, when he treat me as his precious gem

Bata palang kami mahal ko na si Tristan Dame Strafford, he's my knight in shining armor he became a brother to me and a best friend, Dame save my life from danger 7 years old ako noon ng mag summer vacation kami nila mommy sa Siargao my parents loves sports lalo na ang surfing yun na ang pinaka bonding moment nila since busy sila sa kanya kanya nilang karera, Ate Pheme got interest on that sport while I don't hindi rin ako marunong mag swimming, pero that summer inaya ako ni ate Pheme to try this stuff well she tought me some of basic movements but then she left me alone in the middle of huge waves

pinilit kong mag kakawag sa tubig para hindi ako tuluyang lumubog at paraan ko na din iyon para maka kuha narin ng atensyon ng iba, i dont know how many minutes i was long seeking for help until i got tired breathing pero bago ko tuluyan ipikit ang aking mga mata may isang batang lalaki ang sumagip sakin, and there i found that it was Tristan simula noon utang na loob ko na ang buhay ko sakanya there we became friends

"umayos ka nga Dame tara na sa kwarto mo"  natigil ako sa pag mumuni ng may marinig akong boses sa labas..

"A-ate, ha-hanapin ko pa.. hahanapin ko pa si Zea, ate.. yung a-asawa ko " agad akong napatakip sa aking bibig it was obviously Tristan and ate Dione , mukhang lasing pa si Tristan base sa tono nito

"Utang na loob ayaw na sayo ng asawa mo, hindi ko alam kung bakit pero tigilan mo na Dame naman 7years is enough and now she's back i can see she hates you so much to death" nakagat ko ang labi ko sa sinabi ni  ate .. oo sigurado akong galit ako pero alam ko rin mahal ko pa din siya

"No.. no  .. i will fight for *hik* her till death also, mahal ko siya *hik* i do love Phoebe Azalea Bustamante -Strafford .. i will do anything to reach her again kahit buhay ko ang kapalit i will not let her run away again i will never stop chasing my wife, she's mine no one will get her through my hands"

"Ewan ko sayo.." ate dione

Napasandal nalang ako hindi ko naman inaakalang hinanap pala ako ni Tristan sa loob ng mahabang panahon sa loob ng mga taong iginugol ko para bumuo ng pader sa pagitan naming dalawa and hearing this words unti unti niyang natitibag ang harang na pinilit kong itayo dahil sa sakit na ipinaranas niya sakin,

I'm not here to love him back but i'm here to make him suffer and i think it slowly happening and it kills him to hell.. i'm sorry dear husband I love you but I also hate you up to hell..