Choosing

u s h i j i m a

A/N - You get to choose who you end up with. This is Ushijima's ending. Go back for Oikawa or Bokuto.

I knew who I would pick all along. Ushijima just gets me in a way I'm afraid no one else ever will. He's the only right choice.

I quickly get dressed and start heading to the volleyball court. I know he's practicing right now, mostly because Sara went to see Tendou and saw Ushijima at the school gym. I don't know how he's even allowed to use the gym but he does.

It's not long before I'm at the gymnasium doors. I take a deep breath and rush in before I can change my mind.

Only... I get stopped by a brick wall. But I know better than to think that.

"What are you doing here?" I hear my brick wall say. I look up and see Ushijima standing there. Sara told me he'd be alone because she stole Tendou.

I'm happy for her. Tendou is chaotic, he'll keep her on her toes. She likes that kind of stuff.

"Just like old times, huh?" I nudge him but he just stares at me. "I came to talk to you."

"About what?"

I take a step back from him and shrug. "You were open and honest with me so I think it's only fair if I do the same for you."

"You don't need too." He says simply. "I know how you feel."

"No, you don't." I rub my forehead. "You told me you loved me and I... I didn't say it back."

He furrows his eyebrows a little.

"And I need to say it back because... I fell in love with you too."

I can see his jaw clench and release. "Oh,"

"Oh? That's it?" I look at him in shock. "After everything you're just going to say-"

He cuts me off by grabbing my chin. "You surprise me everyday."

He plants a soft kiss on my cheek and another on my lips. When he pulls away he puts his forehead on mine.

"You're perfect," I whisper.

He grabs the sides of my waist with both hands. "That's you."

I smile and pull him in for another kiss. Despite his sweat, he's still so gorgeous. I wonder how he does it. All I know is that I could do this all day and not get tired.

-

*3 months later*

I don't mean to brag, but I have the most amazing boyfriend on the planet. Ushijima spends his time either on the court or with me. We never really had to break up for the public, we continued dating - only this time it was official.

I love how I have a best friend and a boyfriend all in one. We talk for hours, but I do most of it. He gives these amazing massages and comes whenever I need him. I'm not ashamed to say that I am one hundred percent obsessed.

We're heading to California now. I'm going to visit my dad and my baby brother while Ushijima's going to see his dad. I managed to drag Sara along and Tendou wouldn't pass up an opportunity to be with Sara.

He treats her like she walks on water. Seriously, I'm not kidding.

My father wasn't exactly thrilled with the idea of having boys tag along, but Ushijima needed to come anyway for his dad. Atleast that's what I'm telling my dad. In reality, I just don't want to part with him.

"We can leave if you want." Ushijima says once we get off the plane.

I tighten my grip on his hand. "No, I'm okay."

"I am not!" Sara whines gripping her stomach. "Planes make me sick"

I give her a sympathetic look. "Sorry,"

She waves me off and Tendou hands her a water bottle to drink. I glance down to the jacket that Ushijima left me so long ago on our first run together. He still makes me go on runs with him, I can honestly say that I'm at my fittest.

"Are you sure you're okay?" Ushijima asks me in a low voice.

I nod my head. "I'm always okay with you."

He looks in my eyes and places a gentle kiss on my lips. "Okay, come on."

I walk hand and hand with him to meet my dad. I'm glad I'm not facing this alone. I'm glad I have Ushijima and Sara and even Tendou with me. I feel a lot less alone.

Five months ago I didn't know who I was. I felt like I was the shadow of Sara, but really I was the shadow of myself. I was content hiding behind Sara as long as I didn't need to stand out. Because once you stand out, people judge. I was afraid of that.

I put the blame on Sara when it wasn't her fault. She was conquering what she wanted to do with her life and I was jealous because I didn't know what I wanted to do at all.

Ushijima has helped me. He has shown me how to be selfless. He's helped me grow into a better person. He taught me that no matter how much I try to push it down, my feelings will always come out in the end.

Sara has helped me. She has shown me what true friendship is. She stood beside me even when I pushed her away. She always had my best interests at heart. She's taught me to be brave and grab what I want without hesitation.

My mom has helped me. She works day and night to keep the house and to keep me in an amazing school where I get an incredible education - even if she's a little crazy. She's my mom and I absolutely love her.

My dad has helped me. Although he left... he taught me that nothing is what it seems. He taught me to be strong and resilient. Our relationship isn't great, but I'm so grateful for the opportunities that he's given to me.

Once I graduate from high school, I'll work my way up to become a manager for a very specific sports team. Ushijima was right, I love helping people and I love watching people strive at what they do.

My life is far from perfect. But it is my life and I won't stand by and let it pass by me. I'm going to grab it and conquer it. I'm not the shadow anymore.

I'm the star.

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