Gone Wrong (Kenma Kozume) Haikyuu

Chapter 23

I woke up very tired and restless. I squinted my eyes when I felt the stinginess. I stood up and looked at my window. I sighed deeply once I remember it again. The cloud seems very gloomy. 

Did that really just happened?

I walked slowly towards my bathroom and stared at my face. Red nose, red and puffy eyes, messy hair... damn it.I wiped once again my tears, when it slowly went down to my face... again... I can't stop crying. 

"Fuck... stop..." I said to myself trying to control my emotions but I can't. After all this time... all those words, all those feelings...

Are all for nothing?

I can't believe this... I can't believe he can do this...

I stared at him for a long time with my mouth gape, staring at him wishing he was just joking right now. "W-What..." I mumbled, trying to process everything he just said to me.

How can he smiled right now? How can he do this right now?!

I tried to smile, hoping he was just talking nonsense by his joke. "s-stop this... that's not a nice joke Kenma-"

" I am not Rin..."He said before his eyes returned to me. "Let's break up."

My gripped on my drink became tighter, trying to sink everything up. D-Did I do something wrong?

He stood up without saying anything and bowed to me. He looked at me and once again... he smiled. "Thank you for everything Rin..." He turned around after that, walked away from me.

while me...

Still trying to sink in everything.

What the hell just happened?

This is unfair...

With my visions blurred, I still tried to look at his built that slowly disappearing at my view. Is that true? Is this all true?

"K-Ke..." I tried calling for his name yet the only thing I can hear is my muffled voice and sob.

No...

With all my strength, I stood up immediately and ran towards him. I grabbed his coat while chasing my breath. He didn't looked at me nor glanced at me. WHY?

He just stood there, not fighting nor resisting... he just let me grabbed his coat.

"W-Why?" I asked with my shaky voice. "All of the sudden... why?" I heard he exhaled deeply. "W-Why Kenma?"

He held my hand- no... he tried to take off my hand that holding right now his coat. I bit my lip, trying to restrain myself from crying for more. I tightly gripped on his coat, making him sighed once again. Eventhough I'm not looking at him, I can see how he tilted his head as he close his eyes. Is he... frustrated? 

"Rin... please-"

"Why?" I said as I gripped tightly to his coat. "Tell me why you are breaking up with me Kenma..."

"Rin, please... don't do this in a hard-"

"I am not!" I said loudly, trying to look at his face right now but then he just looked away, not trying to look at my face. Why? WHY?!

"P-please Rin-"

"L-Look at me..." I said with my shaky voice. "I said look at me Kenma! And tell me why the hell you want to break up with me after all-"

"Dont do this Rin..."

"I can't accept this..." I said as I cried between on my sob. "I will not accept this until you say to me why the hell you want to break up with me?-"