Gone Wrong (Kenma Kozume) Haikyuu

Chapter 24

I took another tissue on my side and wiped my tears. He just listened to me, not talking nor interrupting me with my rants right now.

"I feel so hopeless... I feel I'm the most unlucky person right now. Life is so unfair."

I cried so hard, not minding the stinginess that I am feeling right now in my eyes. I heard a sighed from him once again yet he didn't talk.

"I... I don't know who I should trust anymore. I feel like I want to give up everything right now-"

(Hey Rin, we are here...) He said for the first time. (The hell are you talking about? I am here... We are here.) I wiped my tears once again and listen to him. (You're not unlucky ok? He didn't know that he let go a perfect woman! He's a jerk- Damn it, do you want me to fucking punch him-)

"I will never let you do that Tarou..." I immediately cut him off. "When he broke up with me... I know there is something wrong..." I said to him. "I want to believe him for the last time that he's just using those words as an excuse but... " I bit my lips as a tear fell another from my eyes.

I hear Tarou sighed once again as he keep listening to my cries. (How I wish I can be there right now couz. I wish I can help you right now...) He softly said to me making me smiled and shook my head.

" No need... venting all of my woes right now helps me a lot... I just need to get some rest and take a break."

(Hmm" He hummed in respond (...For now divert your mind to something. Do you want us to visit you? Mom will be very happy about it. What do you say?)

I smiled once again and nodded my head, as if he can see me. "Yes... That will make me happy Tarou, thank you."

After that call with my cousin, I stretched my limbs and shook my head. My cousin is right, I need a break, I need to divert my mind.

Eventhough It hurts and very hard, I need to start my life once again. I'm thankful that Tarou helped me out. I actually really want to talk to my mom, but with our situation right now, I don't think it will work...

I think it will just hurt the both of us.

Without thinking, I'm holding already my vacuum cleaner and start cleaning. I also sparkle my windows and even organized my books. Every part of my apartment, I cleaned it all. After that, I devour a whole fried chicken that I ordered with a pizza and a big coke beside it.

I don't care! I will fucking pig myself right now.

I also watch my favorite show that made me watched the whole series yet, for the first time... I didn't laughed nor smiled. Usually when I watched this show, I will laughed so hard that my side will starting to get hurt.

But no...

I turned off the tv and lay down on my sofa. I covered my eyes once again, when I felt my eyes began to blurry all over again... I just want to laugh today... I just want to move on quickly... I just want to forget everything and yet I can't...

Maybe because we always watch this fucking show...

I woke up feeling cold and numb within my right arm. I held my shoulder and start on massaging it. I look around noticing I slept on the sofa for the whole night.

Yet something caught my eye when I looked around.

I bit my lips trying to stop myself from crying again and went towards it. I sat infront of it and traced my finger on it.

I tilted my head while biting my lips. "Why did you lie?" I asked as I mumbled to my unfinished canvas of Kenma.

I shook my head hardly and sighed deeply. "No Rin... you need to stop. Stop this... you're just hurting yourself more..." I said to myself.

I saw my phone lighted up making me go to it to check. Kuroo sent me a message asking if I'm available right now.

Kuroo: Chibi, you're free? The team want to go out today to have fun. Kenma's not answering my phone nor my messages so that's why I'm asking you directly. Also, have you talked to Kenma already?

Yeah... we already met but it didn't go well.

As I was typing for my reply, another message popped came from Kuroo.

Kuroo: I already talked to Kenma. He said he will go but he said you're busy? Eh? What the hell chibi? Forget that and come with us! Hahaha

I bit my lips and tightly held my phone. He said that? Maybe... he really don't want to see me huh?

Me: Pass...

I quickly send it and when to my kitchen when I heard my stomach grumbled. It's already 11:37 in the morning and still didn't have any breakfast... I woke up so late.

I sighed deeply when I opened my fridge and saw nothing.

Damn it, I need to grocery.

I went to the bathroom to take a quick shower and wore my hoodie. I looked at the mirror and frown, when I saw how horrible am I looking right now.

I shook my head in disappointment and thought of just wearing some sunglasses. As I was walking towards the grocery store, I stopped in midway when I saw some tall guys.

Mostly when I knew that rooster hair and that silver hair. Shit...

I quickly hid myself behind a wall and took a peak on them, hoping that they didn't see me. I am so closed to them that how the fuck didn't I notice them.

That's why right now I am praying that they won't notice me. Yet...

My mouth agaped when I noticed that pudding head. He was playing with his psp, listening to Yaku's lecturing voice. I saw how he shook his head and smiled a little bit.

He's ok...

Everything is ok for him.

I bit my lips once and slowly hid myself back. My phone rang making me surprised and nervous at the same time that what if they hear it?

I looked at my screen when I saw Kuroo's calling me right now. I took a peak at them when I saw them looking at Kuroo waiting for me to answer his call. Even Kenma's looking right now at him.

I hid myself once again and answered it.

"Yeah?"

(Where are you Chibi?! What do you mean pass?!)

"I'm... busy right now-"

(about what?)

"some... stuff..." I said as I took a peak at them again. Kuroo looked at them again and sighed deeply. I bit my lips once I saw their faces. "I'm sorry... I'll... I'll make up to guys..."

(Are you ok?) His question made me stop. (You seems so tired right now? Chibi, are you ok?)

"Y-Yeah..."

(Oh... you know what, do you want us to visit you-) SHOOT!

"NO!" I shrieked in surprised. "I... I mean... I'm out of town."

(E-Eh? Where?)

I bit my lips while looking at them. I saw Kuroo mumbled something to Kenma making his eyes big and stopped.

"Hyogo..." I said quietly. "I'll just contact you when I get home ...Bye."

I said immediately as I hanged up the phone. Kuroo stared at his phone and talked to the team. After that I hid again behind the wall and exhaled deeply.

Guys... I'm sorry...