Gone Wrong (Kenma Kozume) Haikyuu

Chapter 26

This chapter will be Kenma's POV

"And that's the end of my stream today everyone. Catch me again on Friday, 8pm I'll be on live again. Again everyone thank you for today! Kodzuken, out!"

I sighed deeply after I took off my headset and leaned back on my chair.  I stretched my arms up as far as I can, trying to relax myself after a long day. 

What a tiring day. 

I opened my ipad and checked my email if there's any report or news regarding about the company. I just have 3 meeting's today and I can literally feel my head is going to burst.

The company's doing great , everything's seems fine... but not me.

Something's missing... 

As I keep daydreaming iof nothing, I didn't even notice that I am staring to my desk... actually no...

I am staring to our picture...

I took the picture frame and caressed it. We were still young, still naive of everything... The way she hugged me from the back and how she smiled so lovely...

I sighed as I bot my lips, staring at our photo. damn it,I can't believe I'm still keeping this. I can't believe I can't throw this...

I shook my head and returned it to my desk. I lean back again and covered my eyes with my arm.

It's been 6 years huh?

6 years since I last saw her...

6  years since  I didnt hear any news from her nor anything from her. I can't believe after all these years, I can't still forget her. I can't still believe that she left. 

To be honest, after all  I did and said to her... I can't get her out of my mind. I'm trying to convince myself to forget her, end with her but... the memories of her crying and being devastated because of me, still hunts me. 

I just want to end everything in an easy way... eventhough it hurts so much. 

I just want to tell her that I have my own reasons for breaking up with her... 

I tried looking for another girl. I tried entertaining and talking to this girl which I can't believe that she's so much like her... 

she resembles Rin...

She's sweet, cute but a little bit of clumsy...  

 A diversion just to forget her yet... she still hunts me. In the end, I can't do it. 

It's like everything just happened yesterday. I can still remember everything... the day she left me and the team...

I chase my breath as we just finished the 2nd set of game today. I look around still looking for her. She also didn't attend today's practice.

"I hope Rin's just late today..." I heard Yaku said as he looked at the door's gym. "She didn't tell anything to you Kenma?" I glanced at him and shook my head.

Ofcourse she wouldn't say anything to me... she hates me... after what I did to her.

I glanced at my side. For the first time, Yamamoto is quiet today. He's not also in his self-right now. Everything seems so dark right now... I wiped myself with my towel as I looked again to my team mates. Why is it so gloomy? Is it because she's not here?

I looked at my towel once again as I remember how she handed this to us with a smile. Simple way but it can take away our tiredness.

All of us immediately looked at the gymnasium door when it opened. I sighed secretly when I saw it's only coach. She's not here again?