Gone Wrong (Kenma Kozume) Haikyuu

Chapter 16

I didn't let go Kenma's hand. I held it tightly, just staring at it not even minding the teases from the boys.

It's like... I need him right now. I need his warm touch.

After auntie and I talk, I gripped my phone tightly and closed my eyes, trying to make myself calm... How did he know auntie's address? What does he want and why is he here?

I sighed deeply and shook my head. No... I need to calm.

I went slowly to Kenma and held his hand without saying anything. He noticed the low energy that I have a while ago as he took a peek at me and asked me in concern. But then, I just simply shook my head and quietly laid my head on his shoulder.

It's like my energy have been drain by a phone call only.

I felt him shocked for a second due to my action, but quickly went relaxed as he put his hand on my back, trying to make me comfort.

With my trembling hands, I tightly held his hand. My hands are trembling so hard that I want it to be stopped but I can't

What auntie said to me a while ago struck me so hard that a lot of thoughts are keep flooding to my mind.

What if he saw me?

What if he keep pestering me and tries to take me back in the Philippines?

What if he do something bad to me? To the team? To Kenma?

What if... what if he tell Dad my location?

Shit... my mind has been toxicated by negative thoughts. I need to prepare myself... because one of this days, I'm sure I will meet that guy.

My thoughts interrupted when I felt Kenma lightly tapped me on my shoulder. I quickly looked at him with big eyes, panicking as he looked at me. "Are you ok?" He quietly asked me. I quickly nodded my head as I tried to make myself calm and normal my actions. "The others already left..."

I bit my lips as I looked around. He's right...

We are already infront of my apartment yet I didn't notice. My mind is too occupied with fear that I didn't even have a chance to say goodbye to them.

I sighed deeply and took my keys out. I unlocked my door but Kenma quickly took my hand.

"Rin... are you really ok?" He asked me in concern as he stared at me for a while. I wanted to be honest to him but something is stopping me from telling him.

Its like... something will happen If I told them- him my secret.

I'm sorry Kenma...

So what I did is, just smiled to him and gave him a hug.

I didn't let go even though I heard his his trembling and nervous voice, talking to me and calling for my name. I know his embarrassed right now but I just want to hold him right now.

I need his warm arms around me right now.

I felt his warm arms envelope me slowly making me closed my eyes instantly. I can feel his hot breath hitting on my neck but it didn't tickled me.... It actually made me feel relaxed, hearing and feeling the rhythm of his breathing.

"Rin... are you really ok?" I heard him asking me again. I gave him a little nod.

"Yeah... I just... need your hug right now." I felt his arms tightly hugged me as soon as I said it to him.

"I'm worried..." He trailed off. "As soon as you hang up that phone call, you've become quiet. You didn't even notice the team left already..." He said. He let go and held my face with both of his hands as he stared at me in the eyes. "If you have a problem, talk to me. I'll listen. I'm... I'm your boyfriend remember?"

I cant helped but to smile at him and nodded my head.

"I will kenma... I'm sorry for worrying you." I said. I stared at him once again and caressed his cheeks. I put some of his hair that covering his face behind his ear and stared at him again lovingly. With a lot and strong courage, I said it.

"I love you Kenma..."

As soon as I said it , his hand let go of my face, like all of his nerves became jelly as it fell on his side. His mouth gaped as he looked at me with a surprised looks. I quickly noticed the redness of his face as he covered his mouth with his hand that I cant helped but to bit my lips seeing his cute actions right now.

And ofcourse, knowing him he's still not used of being affectionate, mostly when I kept surprising him... I didn't wait for his feedback. I just simply pulled him towards me and hugged him tightly.

"R-Rin-"

I know he cant say it... but I know what he feels. That's all that matters.

"It's ok Kenma... you don't need to say it to me also. I already know your feelings for me and that's enough..I just want you to know that I love you." I assured him.

I felt his little nod, making me smiled secretly as he held me once again tightly. "thank you"

My phone automatically rang as soon as I closed the door and when Kenma left already. I sighed deeply once I saw my cousin's name on the screen. What does he want right now? 

"What do you want?"

(No hello? Harsh...) He simply said. ( I heard your ex came here? Ew...)

I cant helped but to chuckle. "Yeah... auntie told me. That's why my brain is not functioning well right now."

(Your brain is really not functioning since you were born stupid... I already know that.)

 I bit my lips, restraining myself to be pissed right now because of his smart mouth. Does he really need to insult me everytime we talked?

(Choosing Tokyo over us? If you really have a brain, you should be with us right now. Mom really wants you to stay here... so that you won't be lonely anymore-)

"Who said I'm lonely stupid-"

(I did.) He simply said. I can feel the boredom in his voice, even his face right now... I can imagine right now his boring face. Oh god I want to smack him on the head right now! (Mom kept asking me your status. Since you arrived here in Japan you didn't dare to show yourself to us-)

"I dont have a time, stupid... It's not like Hyogo and Tokyo are just fucking neighbors!" 

(Regardless... show your ugly face to us sometime-)

"Just admit it that you miss me..."

(.... Ew) I laughed so hard hearing him gagging at the other line. This boy...

"Am I lying?Just admit-"

(Stupid... hearing that from you giving me goosebumps right now.) he trailed off. I heard his laugh for second, before I heard him exhaled deeply. (Ok...just this one. I miss you my stupid cousin.) He said making me smiled. (so fucking visit your family here in Hyogo sometimes. We miss you.)

I nodded my head and smiled. "I miss you too stupid..." I said and looked at the ceiling. Well, thankfully I still have a family that I can ran with and cares for me.

(Are you crying?) He asked making me closed my eyes and smiled. I shook my head, as if he can see and let myself lean on the wall.

"No..." I said. "How can I cry right now when you're being a jerk... Suna Rintarou." 

(Not my fault... it's in the blood.) He simply answered making me looked at the ceiling with a smile on my face.