a/n- hey guys it's mom:) i am so fucking depressed right now, but seeing you guys react to my book makes me smile, it brings me genuine happiness. i love all of you babies, my sugas<3 also i may make short chapters, instead of long ones but that just means there'll be more chapters lmao
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naomis pov
"billie?"
"yes my nay baby?"
"i love you."
i woke up from another dream, of course, on chicken thighs shoulder. i hate her, but i keep dreaming that i love her.
i quickly sprung off of her almost hitting my head on the rainy window next to me, the raindrops were peaceful, as peaceful as they can get when all that's on your mind is trying to figure out if you love the person who has broken you to pieces, a countless number of times.
"naomi?"
"yes, billie?"
"do you think raindrops have a story?"
"it's called precipitation you fucking idiot."
"naomi, please. i just got out of jail for a murder that didn't happen. i'm asking you, do you think they watch over us on gloomy days? that's why they're here?"
she sounds so fucking crazy. i want to throw her out the window i physically can't do this oh my god."
"sure, bil, sure."
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when we got to billies house, her mom greeted us with a warm welcome.
"hi huns! oh how i missed my naomis beautiful face!"
i love you maggie.
billie took me to her room, mila was out getting takis and snacks because we thought it'd be a good idea to binge watch the office.
being in billies room is like another universe, it's everything and more, i wouldn't leave if i didn't have to. her bed is so soft, when i was here during christmas, she would rub my back and play with my hair. i lov- loathe her. yeah, loathe. her lights made me remember of the time i strip danced for her, while listening to a beat finn had made, her brother is truly talented.
"can i sing you to sleep?"
i looked up from where i was picking at the stitches of her blankets, she was looking at me with her phone in her hand, she had a melody pulled up.
"why. i'm not tired, i'm going to stay up to watch the office."
"no, your not. your tired naomi, please, let me sing to you."
"whatever billie"
i got dressed in a shirt from her closet and just took off my tight ass jeans, underwear is so comfy.
she held the blankets up, i got under and wrapped myself up, she tucked me in and as much as i didn't want to smile i did. this was heaven, i lov- love..her bed. i love her bed.
i closed my eyes, and listened.
"i've been watching' you for some time.."
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billies pov
"fallin' into your ocean eyes..those ocean eyes."
those god damn ocean eyes naomi. i fucking love you.
"BILLIE!"
mila busted into my door, with zero permission at all, she does this shit all the fucking time.
"mila..? billie?"
and she woke naomi up.
"what the fuck mila. naomi was sleeping.
"I JUST GOT THAT WHOLE SONG ON VOICE MEMO! THE WORLD NEEDS TO HEAR THIS!"
"i agree with whoever this..or whatever this thing is." finn walked in behind her, with a smiling face.
"no. my voice is for me, only me. well, and the people i love."
"love?" naomi sat up in my bed.
i ignored her.
"so no, the world does not need to hear me. goodnight mila. goodnight finn."
i slammed the door on their faces, i told naomi to go back to sleep and she listened because damn was she tired.
my voice. it's my voice.
if anyone hears that voice memo, i'll kill her.
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milas pov
"finn, people need to hear this."
"i know, i've always known, but billie said no, and we listen to her. got it?"
"finn baby maybe she's right, bil has an amazing voice." maggie was listening from their living room.
i looked at finn right in his eyes. "we need to do this for her. it could change her lives, all of our lives at that."
he sighed, and looked to his feet, but then back at me.
"okay. i'm in."
*post.*
