a/n- ⚠️mentions of self harm and depression!⚠️
billies pov
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"what if you fucked me? that would get her good." mila was sitting on the table at lunch planning some kind of bullshit to get naomi back for punching her. i personally hated all of her ideas.
"that's a hard pass, id rather fuck naomi honestly."
"you're straight! remember billie?"
"mila..i don't want to keep lying to her."
i want to be friends with naomi so fucking bad, but mila thinks it's better for me to keep my distance for some reason. it all happened the day of soccer in gym.
*flashback to gym*
billies pov
"so you're trying to tell me that bitchass goalie wasn't cheating?" heaven argued.
"yes. yes i am." i laughed and gave him a punch to his arm.
"hey billie, can i talk to you?" mila had caught up to us after putting the soccer ball away somehow.
"yeah, i guess so. what's up mila?"
"can you guys hurry up? naomi's asleep and i'm not going to bother her so i'm sitting here." heaven had an annoyance in his voice so i was guessing he knew what mila was going to say, and it bothered him.
"look bil..naomi is my best friend. like, in the entire fucking world. i would give anything to that girl, i would do anything for that girl."
"okay. all i said to you earlier was that i wanted to be friends with her, get to know her. i never said i was going to steal her from you or some shit."
"i know, but listen. naomi used to know this girl named heidi, they were basically fuck buddies but naomi was in love with heidi and heidi was just a horny bitch who wanted to have as many bodies as she could have. naomi was never her first choice though, and i can't have naomi get hurt again.."
"what are you trying to say mila?"
"she likes you. and i don't want you to break her heart."
"who said i was going to? who said i even like her?"
"billie, me and mila both see the way you look at her." heaven had joined in now.
"look, i don't know what the fuck you guys are talking about, i just want to be her friend. maybe fuck her a few times but.." i stared at them to see if they caught the last part.
"ha! i knew it! you do like her!" mila noticed first.
"okay, i just think she's hot as fuck, but that doesn't mean it's an actual crush just yet. i don't know her like that man."
"yeah, we know our bestfriend is sexy. we know." heaven placed a hard high five on milas hand before he sat back down.
"look, billie. all i'm trying to say is that i need you to pretend to be straight so i can get her over heidi. because i don't want her to still be in love with her if you guys start like flirting or whatever."
"you don't think me being straight won't break her heart even more?"
"no. i know naomi, she'll get over it."
"so i can't even be friends with her?"
bullshit.
"no you can, i promise. now let's go, i'm going to act pissed so she tries to ask me what's wrong and then i'll tell her. hopefully she doesn't over react."
*end of flashback*
present day
billies pov
so basically naomi overreacted and i screamed at mila later that night about how stupid she was. but she still thinks that getting her back is a good idea and that naomi will laugh about it. but damn, the way she hit mila..showed she doesn't play around.
"billie are you even listening to me?"
i shrugged before shoving a french fry into my mouth.
heaven walked over to us, i immediately noticed there was something wrong, his head was down low and he kind of just looked ashamed of something.
"hey..buddy, what's wrong?" i put my hand on top of his.
"naomi and i talked about the situation in the hallway just now.."
"what?!" mila started listening apparently.
"chill mila, don't freak out on me because you don't have the balls to talk to your bestfriend by your-fucking-self."
damn he really just said that.
"what'd she say?" i had been concerned about naomi ever since the shit with her and mila went down. she hadn't shown up to lunch for two whole weeks, since her mila still weren't talking, in fact, none of us talked to her at all. well, until today i guess.
"she's gone back into her depressing ass state of mind bro..she was wearing a hoodie and leggings. and her eyes looked like she had just got done crying."
"it's 98 degrees out, why the hell she have on a hoodie?" i chimed in.
mila looked at me guilty. "she has a problem with self harm." i could see the tears in milas eyes form when she said that.
"oh.."
"she said she didn't mean to hurt mila in any way, shape, or form. she was just hurt that mila called her a liar and was hurt that mila told her you were straight." he looked up at me with tears in his eyes too, they really cared about naomi. he continued.
"and mila..she finally.."
"what!? finally what heaven?!" milas head perked up.
"she finally burnt the box of pictures that she had of her and heidi, and she said she hasn't thought of heidi in weeks. all she's been thinking about is us, especially you mila." heaven finished.
they were both crying now and mila jumped over the table to hug heaven. i joined in their hug as well.
"what are we waiting for? let's go get your bestfriend back!" i jumped up and grabbed both their hands.
they smiled and agreed.
