billies pov
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"billie- what? don't play with my feelings like that."
i guess naomi really had zero idea i liked her.
"i'm not. i got to know you and you're absolutely beautiful inside and out. i hate being all sentimental though so please don't make me explain in full detail why i like you nay, i just do. i mean who couldn't like you? you're sexy as fuck."
she smiled at me with her teeth poking out, her smile could light up a room. her cheeks got red after i said she was sexy but hey, i don't lie.
we sat in silence for a good five minutes, she was looking down at the floor, her feet hanging off the side of my bed. i was right next to her, but it felt like she didn't even know i was there.
i snuck down below her so i could look and see her face, my knees were cold from the freezing hardwood under them.
"naomi..?"
she was crying. what the hell did i fucking do. i shouldn't have even told her. i hate myself.
"naomi." i stood up and brought my hand to her cheek, still not being able to see her face. i let my hand lift up her face to reveal her puffy face. it broke my heart seeing her like this.
"why are you crying baby? did i do something? should i not have told you? should i have just kept my mouth shut? i'm so sorry naomi, i am."
she didn't say anything but she did let the corners of her mouth stand to form a light smile. she looked up at me and giggled a little.
"you're adorable billie, you know that? adorable. thank you for telling me. i have to go now though. i love you so much."
fuck fuck fuck fuck.
no no no no no.
she can't leave.
she planted a kiss on my cheek and went to open the door. i grabbed her wrist before she could even get it a crack open.
"why are you leaving? we were supposed to spend the day and night together. did i do something? tell me the fucking truth naomi!"
"billie. baby, you did nothing. i'm just tired and i need to sleep in my own bed..and think about a few things."
"but nay, what about us?"
"us? there is no us? i don't know what you're talking about billie. i have to go."
what the hell did i do?
my heart broke while i watched her close that door. i wondered if i meant anything to her, or at least if my feelings meant anything to her. i dropped to my knees and threw my face into my hands, i let out loud sobs. even if i was overthinking this, i couldn't help but think i just lost my bestfriend.
naomis pov
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when i entered my dorm i broke down into tears. i was confused like always man. i absolutely hate myself. how could i just leave her like that? i always let my problems get into the way because i'm an insecure little bitch. god fucking damn what i would do to just leave this school and not even just the school- the whole fucking world.
"awh, what's wrong baby?" i heard a familiar voice in front of me. i thought it was mila at first but there would be no way she was back this early and heaven went with her so it wasn't him, plus it was a female obviously. no one had the spare key except for-
no
fucking
way
i looked up and saw her. the same blue eyes, black hair, and hourglass fucking body i had always loved. my eyes scanned her up and down. how the fuck is she here, more importantly, why.
"heidi.."
"hi baby, i'm back in school. my parents caught me doing lines, my fucking bitchass dad decided to stick me in the delinquent section of the damn school though."
the delinquent side of the school had all the girls and boys who basically either did hard drugs, were involved in gang activities, got into hardcore fucking fights, or had terrible parents. i almost went there after choking a bitch because they touched heidi when me and her were dating. well, we were only dating if you can even count me being in love with her and her fucking other whores dating.
i got up from my place on the floor and walked over to my bed, ignoring her trying to touch me or talk to me. i was so fucking confused. heidi was my first love, and billie..well i don't know what we were.
"didn't you miss me baby? i snuck all the way over here just for you, i had to pull a fucking fire alarm! yet you're not even talking to me."
so she was the one who pulled the fucking fire alarm, figures. she was pouting now and somehow slid onto my lap, she was wrapped around me so if i stood up i could carry her.
"why are you here heidi, and i thought they caught you when you pulled the alarm?"
"because i missed you naynay, and i blamed this one bitch. i don't know her name."
always blaming others for her actions, damn she hasn't changed.
"i'm sorry for everything that happened between us naomi, can you please give me a second chance? i'll make it all up to you right now if you want."
she started kissing my neck, getting lower and lower. she pushed me back onto the bed and climbed me all the way down until she reached my pants, she pulled down my leggings.
i didn't know if i should say no or let her keep going, fuck. she's manipulating me again, she's in my head.
she pulled down my black lace underwear and kissed my hip bone before moving towards my soft spot down there.
god damn it naomi, fucking stop her!
"heidi get off of me you fucking bitch!" i pushed her to the floor and fastly pulled up my pants.
"what the hell is your problem?! you used to be in love with me! remember naomi?! you were obsessed with me!"
"your a joke. you fucked other girls the whole time and i had to figure it out from my bestfriend because she fucking walked in on you with a girl in MY bed!"
"but yet you continued to date me so..what's your point naomi?"
"my point is i'm in love with someone else now, and i'm obsessed with THEM now so you need to fucking get out NOW so i can go fuck THEM instead of YOU!"
holy shit, well i definitely wasn't confused on what i wanted anymore.
i wanted billie, god damn, i wanted billie so bad.
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A/N- i'm SO sorry for not making chapters for the last two days! i was babysitting lmaoooo.
