AUTHORS NOTE.
hey y'all, this is me asking if you guys are still here?? like active n shit. i have so many more updates in my drafts but this is just a little teaser for whats about to go down. trust me everything gets a lot better from where this leaves off. i'm sooooo sorry for not being active, i'm trying to hold my relationship together without fucking it up. love you guys, xoxo. ENJOY!
naomis pov.
it's been three months since billie cheated on me. i don't know why she did it, i don't know if i wasn't good enough, i just don't know. heaven and mila have been the only two people on my side. billie met a few girls a while ago, thats been her friend group. i've never felt my heart break as much as it broke when i found out. i kind of have tuned everything out. i don't text people, i cry myself to sleep. my gasp cries can molt through the wall and the school has been getting complaints about it. the sad thing is, i thought i found the one. the person who would check on me when i needed it, reassure me, and walk me through life. i was wrong, so so dead wrong.
billies pov.
it's been three months since naomi broke my heart, and since i was sexually assaulted. i fucking hate being me. a girl broke into my house, and assaulted me. naomi walked in at the wrong time, and of course she would assume i was cheating, she always assumes the worst in me. maybe i'm a horrible person, maybe i'm not worth the time of the day for her anymore. maybe i should just give up all together right? naomi was my fucking drug. she numbed everything and i have never felt love the way i felt it with her. have i tried to date here and there? yes, but only to fill the gap in my heart. she was my entire universe and she was so incredibly good to me. nothing matters to me as much as she mattered to me. there are days i sit in my room and i can feel her touch me or i can smell her. maybe i'm bat shit crazy but sometimes i can see her sitting at the end of my bed, sitting there with her chin on top of her knees, staring at me with a smile. i miss her, i thought i'd be so perfect and i thought i'd treat her like my princess until i could make her my queen. apparently i wasn't worth anything to her. so, hell. i was so wrong, dead fucking wrong.
