Falling Too Far - Gruvia

Chapter 20

AN: this chapter may trigger people with/have experienced eating disorders

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Gray's POV:

My dad and I split ways after the unbearable twenty minutes of staring at my mother's gravestone. It's been six years and I still can't fucking come to terms with it. My Dad knew this. It's why she was rarely brought up.

He drove me to the train station. He hadn't urged any information out of me since walking in on my little intimate mouth moment with Juvia. Until he pulled up.

"So, you and Juvia? Is that a thing now?" As much as he'd teased me about her, he wasn't as excited as I thought he'd be.

"No." I immediately answered.

"Can I ask you," Like he needed my permission or not, he'd continue anyway, "Why did she say it was wrong? Is she seeing someone else?"

Sort of? Her and Lyon confused me. They went on one date, which in no way was good seeming as they ended up coming to my apartment, but they still want more?

I mainly kissed Juvia out of guilt. I was ashamed of my actions. Regarding the previous night.

I had sex once she and Lyon left, and this time it wasn't with Cana. It meant nothing to me, and nothing to her. The reasons for our actions were a bit complicated to explain. It was a quick fuck, neither of us naked either. On top of my kitchen counter, just flies undone and her underwear gone. I was drunk. That was why I agreed to it. No way in hell I would've said yes to her idea of "payback" if I was sober.

She ended up leaving her underwear in my room so the person she was getting payback on would know she wasn't bluffing. What do I get in return? Probably a black eye.

"We agreed we'd see other people since we have different interests." To put it simply.

"Why'd you mention Lyon?" Of course that was brought up, "Is she dating him?"

I was already sick of the interrogation. My dad was such a nosy bastard and couldn't keep his damn mouth shut.

"Dad, can we drop it now? I don't wanna talk about it."

With a sigh, he accepted my demand. As I opened the car door into the crisp winter air, he caught my attention, "But," He started, "Gray, if you have feelings for her, and she has feelings for you, stop it with the stupid "no commitments" crap you've had going on ever since you broke up with Minerva. You'll regret it."

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My Dad's words stuck with me the whole journey back to Magnolia. I knew how strong my feelings were for Juvia. So strong that I'm actually open about my emotions with her. I've only known her a few months but it was enough for me to tell her the truth behind my mother's death. Not even Natsu or Erza knew about that.

I was on the brink of collapsing as soon as I opened the door to my apartment. The only thing I'd eaten was that muffin and piece of chocolate. For the rest of the day I had been surviving on coffee. My dad offered to go out some place nice for food, but I refused.

It's happening again... I thought I was over it?

I dawdled on the way up the stairs to my bedroom. My eyes were heavy and I was ready to fall into a deep sleep for at least seventeen hours. When I spotted the red lace underwear on my floor, it came back to me that Juvia dragged me up here. She must've seen it as it was so out in the open.

I couldn't tell her about it. If she asks I'll just say it's Cana's. Now, I've had sex with Cana so many times, but each time she'd never leave me a little something to remember it. Afterwards, we'd instead just part ways mere seconds after coming or get drunk together and talk shit about people. I hadn't actually screwed her since Laxus' party. Until last night I wasn't in the mood for sex. That shag wasn't even that enjoyable. While I was inside her, I wasn't thinking about her. She wasn't on my mind when I came. Memories of Juvia rushed through my head. I've seen her almost completely naked, I've touched her in places none of her other friends have. At least I hoped so.