Falling Too Far - Gruvia

Chapter 11

I still don't believe that Gray actually went through the trouble of buying me another laptop. He didn't have to do that, I was at least three more pay checks away from having enough money to get my own. 

I admit, I've got a small crush on him. There's still that mild dislike I have about him though, seeming as he could never control his twatty personality. What makes me fall even more head over heels for him is the way he kisses me. His kisses are so desirable, and some what passionate. When Gray left after I kissed him at the coffee house, Lisanna was sworn to secrecy. I forgot she was in the room when I did that, and was quite embarrassed afterwards. 

It was getting towards midnight, Gray and I were on the couch watching a movie, the others were fast asleep. I was in between Gray's legs, his arms were around me. My head was leant back in the crook of his neck. I had no doubt that after tonight we were going to start avoiding each other again. We both didn't want to confess how we exactly felt, it just wouldn't be right between us. 

I feel Gray remove one of his arms from me and pick up his phone, next his lips were brushing against my ear again, I loved it when he did that, "Happy birthday." 

I turn and look at his phone, I was nineteen. I didn't really feel like it, I still felt like a helpless sixteen year old. This year I was only planning on spending my birthday by calling my Mum, buying myself some more chocolate and hopefully going to the movies with Erza or Lucy if they were available. Nineteen isn't special. I didn't even do much for my eighteenth. For my seventeenth however, I stole a motorbike. It's a long story. 

Gray and I started to get distracted from the movie. For the majority of it we started making out again. We made it seem like more of a hobby as we enjoyed the company of each other's mouths. I knew this would be the last time we kissed so I made the most of it, straddling myself on top of him, hands staying on his neck while his caressed up and down my back again. I'd try my best not to moan as his teeth sunk in to my bottom lip, his tongue dominating my mouth. This time, I made a stupid mistake. What I did was just going to tempt us both even more. This was all happening just because of some stupid dare Lucy threw at me. It's her fault we're talking again, and our mouths marking territory. And her fault of what I did next...

I took his hand, slid it under the front of my shirt. I was braless. His hand carefully groped the contents of my breast. His grip was tight enough to make louder moans come out of me, to shut me up his lips were fully planted on mine, his tongue silencing me. My fist clenched on his shirt as he started massaging me. His index finger and thumb lightly tugged on my nipple, he was trying his best to keep in control and not tackle me down. His lips removed from mine and started marking my neck again, my eyes were having trouble remaining open when he squeezed harder. The next stupid thing I did...

I took my shirt off. 

Now I just wanted to get this over and done with, cut the sexual tension once and for all. I think if I let him use my body we'd leave each other alone after that because he'd be satisfied. Plus, I was going to move out so it'd be easier to avoid him. I push him back by his shoulders and force him to watch me as I remove my top piece. His eyes widen as he gazes at my exposed breasts. 

"Juvia, if you don't want to we don't have to." Surely he's used to screwing girls he's known for less than a month.

"I want to get this over with," I lean in closer, breath on his ear, and I whisper, "Just fuck me." 

Why am I allowing myself to be used like this? I don't want to be fucked and left, but when it comes to Gray that's all he wants. The only reason I'm letting him do this is so we can finally leave each other in peace. I want a proper relationship, and this is the closest I'm going to get, even if it's way too soon for me.