His Estranged Mate

Chapter 15: One step at a time!

CATRINA

"What?"

I can't believe the words falling out of Connor's mouth. Is he serious?

"No, Connor. It's purely biological that I lost our babies. Touch is important but just because there was no physical touch between us doesn't mean that you are responsible for it." I am shaking my head even as I speak it.

"No, baby. Werewolves have different biology. Mates are very rare. In fact, it is only now that people have started finding their mates. There was a common enemy who had mixed up poisons in the soil of our werewolf land. That was why there weren't any new births but now after the death of that enemy, we are breathing a little freely."

All this information is so overwhelming, I start fidgeting in my seat in front of Connor who is still clutching on to my hands.

"This is all so very overwhelming, Connor. I don't know. There's no logic in this thinking."

"No, it is logical, Solnysko. Werewolves, grey wolves have only one mate for their whole life. Our entire life goes by searching for our soul-mate. Only a few are lucky to meet their mates so early in their life. You are my soul mate. I need you constantly in my personal space to feel calm. Male wolves are very territorial about their mates..."

"You didn't need me before we met that day," I say accusingly.

"I know, I am so sorry for all the pain I have caused you but it's true that I need you more than you'll ever need me. Because of me, you lost our pups and because of my absent-mindedness, you went through a lot of heart-break," he whispers and leans down to rest his forehead against mine.

I close my eyes and let the tears fall as the meaning of his words set in. Whatever he is saying feels right and rings very true. His acceptance that he was partly responsible for the loss of the babies crushes my heart. The image of two babies running around us reflects so clear in my mind, making my heart thunder at the possibilities.

"I need some time, Connor. I met my real family today and all of a sudden, I come to know that you are some paranormal being. This is too much to digest," I say and it again confuses me about his and my brother's relationship. In fact, if I think of it deeper, his mother and mine appeared to be friends. In fact, the other man, Fenris, he paid close attention to my mother as if she is his own.

What does this mean?

"It is okay. You can take your time to think about it but I just want you to know that I'm yours, Solnysko. If you reject to be mine, I won't force you because I've caused you a lot of heartbreak but don't think that I'll let someone else comfort you," he promises, distracting me from my thoughts and I feel a shiver of excitement run down my spine.

The awareness that's flooding through my body at his words makes me want to either curl up in a ball and sob or pounce on him and let him fuck me. The first option I don't want to choose and the second option feels like a gateway to heartbreak with many small pieces, so small that I won't be able to put them back.

I tear away from Connor's hold and stand up, in the hopes of getting some fresh air and clear up my mind a bit.

"Please don't walk out on me. You can wait, catch up a little with your brother and mother if you want or you can go home, freshen up and then come back here again. Not for me but for your mother," he says when I try to walk out of the room.

His alertness to his surroundings is explainable now because I know that he is a werewolf, which I still can't wrap my head around. It is just so surreal. Me finding my family and coming to know that I love my werewolf-soul-mate who didn't even know that himself.