His Estranged Mate

Chapter 25: Decision made!

CATRINA

Before I can answer Alpha Conan the door swings open to reveal a very distraught looking Connor. His eyes shine with relief the moment he spots me.

"Oh, thank the Goddess!" he exclaims while rushing towards me and engulfing me in his arms. The warmth and safety that his presence provides me immediately soothes away the chill that Alpha Conan had surrounded me with.

"I am sorry, I left without informing you," I say not sure whether I should tell him about Xan.

"Sorry? I was so damn worried I thought I wouldn't see you ever again. I thought someone took you," he whispers in my hair making me feel more and more stupid.

"I... I am sorry," I say once again peeking at Connor's father and watch as he nods at me as if he knows that I've my decision in his favour. He then gets up to leave us alone.

Connor doesn't acknowledge his father at all. I remember he said that his father left them then why is he here now? Does it mean that his parents are back together?

If yes, then it's good for him. Looking at his father, I assume that he has some capable brides waiting for Connor. If only he hadn't met me, his father might have already married him off to some she-wolf.

The thought alone leaves me breathless and I involuntarily bury my head against Connor's chest. On cue, he lifts me up and places me in his lap making me stiffen.

"What is it? What happened?"

"I... I met my step-brother," I begin and immediately Connor growls and his arms tighten around me.

"You know of him?" I ask, even when I know that he knew and no one told me. Another betrayal. It's as if they don't want me. The feeling of hopelessness creeps in but I refuse to break down in front of Connor. If I want to leave him, I'll do that without crying. I can always cry alone. That's what I have always done.

Decision made, I interrupt Connor when he goes to say something bad about Xan and at this point, I am so sure that it's bad.

"Connor, I don't th... think that our relationship can work out," I begin effectively stopping Connor from his rumbling. He pulls back from me, making me feel the loss of his heat and I feel cold all of a sudden.

Wrapping my arms around myself, I shift away from Connor who is looking at me with a very shocked face.

I wait for him to reply and after a whole minute, he does.

"What are you talking about?" he asks, running his hand through his hair, making them appear more dishevelled. But that doesn't in the least stop him from being the charmer.

"I don't want to be with you, Connor," I say firmly, not wanting anyone to be obliged to be with me. If I tell Connor about what his father told me, he might get angry with his father which might cause more family tension. I don't want to be the cause of such family drama.

His parents, his pack comes first, and if I make the decision of rejecting him then Fenris won't break his friendship with Connor. From all angles, it's better if I take the blame and get out of his life. The fact that he has to produce heirs for the pack sends another stab of pain piercing through my body.

I cannot give him heirs. That's another reason why I should leave him.

Nothing supports my need to be with Connor. If I am with him, his pack might not like it. If I am with him, he won't get heirs which might be okay for a while but not when the pack or his family start pressurizing him.