His Estranged Mate

Chapter 46: Mating!

CONNOR

The elder's words echo in my mind, haunting me as I watch my mate twist and turn in agony, her mind confused and her body exhausted with the havoc that the rogue has caused in her body.

Not knowing what to do and with the stakes raised to such a high bar, I am afraid to even touch my mate, afraid that she might curse me for taking away her choice from her.

"Catrina?" I try to call her, hoping that she would respond with at least a little clear mind but all I receive is a whimper in response. She writhes in front of me while I try to caress her back, hoping to soothe her, all the while thinking of a solution.

All my anger has diminished leaving behind a keen sense of loss that I feel for my mate. Will she reject me again after knowing that I took the decision for her? Will she understand why I made this decision? Will she agree with my decision or will she want the other choice?

Yet, the loss will be ours to bear and live with. If I choose her fertility, she might think that I purposely did so to tie her down to me but if I choose her wolf, she might think that I really was ashamed of having a dormant mate.

Both ways I'll be damned!!!

Luck's not on my side, I realise when my mate takes the decision out of my hands and pulls me closer, clearly expressing her demand through this gesture. I go to her, never able to deny my mate, not even when come morning she'll damn me to hell for taking the decision out of her hands.

"Connor. Please, do something."

Catrina's muted whisper is so low yet, I can hear her clearly. She's staring at me now, her eyes golden indicating her wolf at the surface, scared yet determined to fight this through; only if I choose to let her come out. Even her wolf has left the choice on me.

Inside my mind, my wolf growls in response to our mate's agony, his dilemma similar to mine. I want both for my mate, a full-wolf experience and a pup to love, especially a pup when that chance was ripped out of her because of my absence in her life.

I am more responsible for her being barren. She was dormant from the beginning but she's barren because of me. If she loses her last chance at fertility when the decision is still in my hands, I would not be able to forgive myself.

"CONNOR!"

My mate's scream startles me out of my thoughts and I rush to aid her as her upper body ripples in waves while her thighs spread wide, urging me to claim her. She's confused, not knowing what's happening to her. Watching her bearing this pain just because I can't make a decision shames me.

Not thinking anymore, I act rapidly, a male trying to comfort his female, picking her up in my strong arms and try to shield her from as much pain as is possible by me. At once, her body stops convulsing and she settles in my arms, rubbing herself on me.

My primal instincts take over and I stop thinking, only reacting to my mate's touch and her arousal.

Quickly getting out of my pants, I hold Catrina but she quickly understands what I am doing and scoots back a little to watch me. Again, her golden eyes not the original brown of my mate wander over my body, claiming me in that possessive gaze of hers.

Something inside me shifts when she watches me from beneath her lashes, her tongue darting out to wet her dry lips and her throat bobs as she swallows. Groaning at my too innocent yet seductive mate, I pull her closer and run my fingers through her hair, hearing her mewl when my naked body touches hers, cherishing the feel of her.

Tipping her face up, I devour her mouth and she lets me, even urging me to do more when she spreads her legs and her hands move in my hair, holding onto me while I have my way with her.