Alignment of the Stars

Chapter 16

As his skin lingers on mine, his lips were passionately feeding my thirst. His tongue was strolling in my mouth - untangling all the emotions that dwell under my skin.

His kisses start to slowly slide on my neck, feeling his warmth. As he caresses my face.

Everything was still contemplating on my mind. I pushed him, a sign of reluctance. His gaze starts to change as he felt awkward. He takes a deep breath and sighs heavily.

"I'm sorry, I should have not done that, I'm so.." I stopped him as I held his face and kissed him with all pressure. He let me held up as I found myself kissing him while his carrying me. I was crazy over his profound kisses. But all I know is that I want him! I want to be with him.

He looks at me as I tried to catch my breath.

He smirked.

He starts to undress his shirt, as he pushed me on the ledges. His body was in form, his abs were defined as he jumps into me.

He was on top of me, while I'm lying on the bed, asking more. I closed my eyes, sensing all his kisses. He starts to remove my shirt, his kisses get even deeper as it ambles on my body. From neck to my breast, he starts to unhook my bra as the straps were slipping. He directly kisses me on my lips as he fondled my breast. He kissed the ridges of my breast, satisfying his craving.

He looks at me, a vision of permission.

I nod.

He removes his pants, only his underwear was the one covering him. He bussed me slowly going down on my shorts.

He unbuttoned my shorts as his hands were exploring my breast. His hands unzipped it. Only my lingerie was filling in my feminity.

I bit my lips as his hand goes under my lingerie, fiddling it. Started from slow to prompt rubbing.

"Ahhh, please... Stop" I shouted as his finger was inside.

He quickly removes it as instantly his tongue was now playing it. Tasting all of me.

He was too good, I shouted. I was in pain but I don't want him to stop. He makes me feel at ease. My eyes were closed as I pull out his hair. To be honest, it was so painful but he makes it a pleasure.

He looked at me. Vividly thinking.

"More, I want more," I said.

He smirked.

He stands up and saw how big his bulge is. I was staring at it and gradually removes his underwear, exposing his.

How big his member is, it was already pointing at me. He pulls my legs as he widens them.

He licked his hand and rubs them on my vulva. He slowly lets his phallus in.

"Ahhh" I shouted as I can feel how big it is. It was inside mine. Kissing me as he glides over and over again.

I was shouting that he tries to cover it with his kisses. The roam was filled with my moans and groans.

He begins to knead it fast, as he looks at me.

" I...Love... You." He said while catching his breath.

I want to retort but only my groan was my response.

His hands were over my body, stroking my breast. The bed was creaking and following Conan's movement.

He glides faster as he was stitching it. Until I can feel his release. He kissed me.

I love you.

After what we have done he fell asleep. I observed him, letting it sink on my mind.

What just happened? Did it happen? Thinking of it makes me smile. But the wind strongly blows, giving me shivers. As it reminds me of how broken I am. The trauma is back again, haunting me - killing me.

I want to tell him the truth, if only it was that easy. Am I going to tell him? How can I tell him? But what if he'll leave me? What if he won't love me anymore. I cried.

If only.

I was ruined by a stranger's lust, not because I was exposing my skin nor attracting him. I was assaulted because of the rapist itself. And it haunts me how every woman is not safe.

We can never be safe from their lust.

I can never be safe.

But being with Conan makes me secure, he makes me feel relief and forget all of the uncertainty. I don't know what will happen if ever I'll lose you. But luckily the stars were on our side.

He deserves to know the truth. He deserves to comprehend how hard it is to be in my situation.

I love him and if he loves me, he can accept it. If he loves me he can help me, save me.

"Save me, Conan." As I whispered in the mood.

He slowly opens his eyes and starts to look at me. He smiled as he pats my head.

"Hey, why are you still up? Take a rest, my love." He said.

I hugged him.

Clasping him makes me feel better. I sighed.

"Nothing much," I said.

He raises his brows as his jaw clenches.

"You're lying, I know you already Mika" he chuckled a bit.

I just smiled and kissed him.

"I was just thinking how lucky I am to have you," I said while playing with his hands.

"No, I'm the one who's lucky to have you. Even if it's impossible, I'll still love you no matter what. I won't leave you." He whispered as he kissed my forehead.

He made me feel at ease, all the broken pieces were now complete. I know he won't hurt me, but I might.

I just don't want to lose the man that I love. Loving him makes all the lethal thoughts to be mended. If the truth will hurt him. If the truth will make him leave me. Then I'd rather stay silent.

I love you Conan.