Alignment of the Stars

Chapter 17

The sun was watching me picking up my shorts as I glance at the bed, Conan lying.

I draw near to him, I gradually look at his face - seeing how the features of his complexions are completely rounding out.

How fortunate of me to have him in my life. I was so happy that I gave in to him. I gave him myself. I wish it could be like this, but it can't.

I can't.

I can't give him everything.

I was completely staring at him, every gaze was like pain in my eyes. I can see a constraint limiting my desires for him. Enigmas that are slowly depriving me of my own affection.

I sighed heavily as I stood up from the bed and carried my things, leaving him there.

I kissed him on the forehead, a sign of goodbye.

I quietly open the door as I was planning to go home. I checked my phone as I open it has 17 missed calls from Dad and 5 from Neil. I hurriedly ran downstairs but suddenly I bumped into an old man.

He was tall. His face was quite familiar as his beard was completely hiding his maw. His eyes were so deep, as his brows were putting forward. He examines my body from head to toe as he glared at me. He smirked.

He slowly snatched me, covering his hands all over my body. I can feel his deep breath as he laughs sarcastically.
He slowly caressed my skin. Happy that he was able to see me. I know his lust has been growing starting from that day. But what is he doing here? Why is he here! Does that really matter?

"We finally meet again." He whispered as he licked my ears.

Fear began to grow inside me. The fact that the man who assaulted me, the man who is behind all of this trauma and depression that ruined my life is here.

I was entirely closing my eyes as his hands were wholly exploring my back as he grabs my stub. I was about to shout as he covered my mouth.

It was like, everything was going back from the start.

He was about to kiss my neck as I heard Conan's voice.

"Mika?" He said.

He quickly ran downstairs as he approached me. He quickly surveyed the man's hands.

"Tito?" He said while raising his brows.

I don't know what's worse than my situation. Conan's Tito was the one who assaulted me.

"Tito? I'm your father right? and who is this beautiful girl? " he sarcastically said.

"STEP! father" highlighting their connection.

I was so disturbed by what is happening. All I know is that the fear inside me is killing me.

"By the way, this is Mika, my girlfriend. Mika my Stepdad." He said as he held my hand.

His father was amazed that his smiles were totally grinning.

"We've met before, right Mika? By the way, I'm Vicente Fuertes" He said as he offered his hand.

I was so afraid. But Conan was looking at me. His eyes were completely evaluating my actions. I don't want him to know the truth. I can't tell him.

I accepted his hand and as he shooks it. He pulls me over to him as he left me in shock. He was now whispering.

Licking it again.

" Hello, daughter in law." He laughed.

My tears were forming as I pushed him. I quickly ran outside as the dark nimbus clouds were forming. I was running, hearing Conan's voice behind me. Shouting.

He quickly yanks me over him as I find myself crying into his shoulders.
He was caressing my hair. The rain begins to plummet as it dampens out the skin. He was just letting me whimper in pain.

"Shh. Everythings gonna be okay. Please. Tell me what happened?" He said.

I can't tell him. I just can't. I don't want him to know the certainty of reality. I'd rather cover everything even if means lying to him.

"I can't be with you. Please. Stay away from me." I cried as I pushed him away from me.

I don't know what to do. I'd rather ruined our relationship rather than ruining theirs. I just can't, I feel so dirty. I don't want to be with someone who is closely related to the person who assaulted me. I just can't. Every time I look at him now, it reminds me of Vicente's face. I can't be with him, I just can't. He makes me feel uncomfortable. I just can't imagine myself now being with him.

His tears were forming as it slowly falls. He was looking down. Trying to hide his tears. I can feel his pain. The pain that is inevitably stabbing him. But if I continue our relationship, the pain will grow, thriving until it will entirely swallow me, including him.
I'd rather end it when the pain he is suffering is still insignificant.

"Please, just tell me why. I can't let you go without knowing why. Please tell me!" He said as his voice broke.

The raindrops were steering my tears from falling. I just can't look at him. He bent his knees as he wraps his hands over me. Asking, begging for me to stay. I can see in his eyes how much grief he is facing but bigger grief will kill him if we would continue our relationship.

"Please don't let go. Remember what we promised. If only I knew that it was our last night, I should have not closed my eyes. If only I knew, I could've stopped time and contradict with the stars- fate. If only I knew that it was our last night." He said.

I cried as I go down on my knees. I reached for his face as I see him crying. He was looking at me. His stares impale my heart. I love him more than anything, but I'm not ready to handle the truth. To handle the verity.

"Don't you love me?" He said.

Hearing it makes me cry even more. Please. I just want to end it. I just want to wake up in this dream. I want to be with him, but he doesn't deserve my past. He doesn't deserve me.

I held his hands. Forgive me God as I am about to ruin what I have written in the stars. Forgive me for I am about to leave him. Forgive me.

" Sorry, but I don't," I said while controlling the anguish of my heart.

He hugs me.

" I know you do, please say that you love me! Please say. Please say it. I know you do." He said while shrugging me, letting me be awake from the fantasy that I am living.

I was just crying. I can't answer him. My life is full of "I can't" but being with him feels like I can do all the things that I want. But right now he changed it. He makes me feel that I can't be with him. I just can't.

Redundant and loathed I might be, yet I just can't let him in, in the shallows of me.

"Okay, if that's what you want. But always remember how much I love you. Sorry if ever I didn't save you from the stars that are falling. I guess our stars didn't meet at all." He said as he left me there shrieking in pain

If only I could amend my past.

If only.