𝙌𝙪𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨 | [ ʜᴡᴀɴɢ ʜʏᴜɴᴊɪɴ x ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ ] |

Chapter 30

She couldn't sleep, not one bit. Her mind was swarming with thoughts of Hyunjin, did he really have that much of an impact on her..?

A part of her was still shaking from what happened at Ateez's headquarters, it didn't feel real. It happened not too long ago, only a few hours past since she was kidnapped, again.

A week later..

The sun was bright and a beam of light had passed through the window of Y/n's room landing on her bed sheet. She woke up from the brightness and was still tired since she didn't get enough sleep. Her hair was messy and fluffy and like usual, the house was quiet.

Y/n was like a flower, the flower needs sunlight to grow or else it would fall apart. Without that sun, without Hyunjin, she slowly felt empty and was falling apart.

He probably wasn't unconscious anymore, he probably woke up. With a bit of motivation Y/n got up from her bed and freshened up, she needed to brighten up her day, no matter how hard it was.

Without Felix or Hyunjin being in Stray Kids' headquarters it felt weird, it wasn't the same, there were no long conversations or too much commotion, it was oddly quiet. She went downstairs wearing a warm sweater to prevent getting cold. As she was making her way to the kitchen she heard the front door open.

Instantly, Y/n turned around and saw Jeongin come in with Jisung and Felix. She was surprised that Felix was back since no one told her they would go to the hospital. "Felix, how are you..?" She made her way towards them.

"I'm doing fine Y/n, I'm glad to see you again." He said, giving his eye smile, it hadn't been long but it felt a lot longer without seeing each other. She thought that they only went to get Felix because she didn't see any of the other members, nor did she see Hyunjin..

But then she heard car doors closing from outside and the other members coming in from the front door one by one. Lastly, her eyes grew wide when she saw Hyunjin coming in wearing a black sweatshirt and dark blue jeans with his hand on the back of his neck..

She rushed to Hyunjin hoping that he would be glad to see her with that bright smile on his face. Chan called out her name with a sad tone and the other members had a sad look on their faces.

Y/n wrapped her arms around Hyunjins waist hugging him, but not too tight, she didn't know if it would hurt him or not, or if he was still sore. But she was shocked by Hyunjin's actions....he didn't even hug her back...

He pulled away from her with a cold look on his face. "Excuse me." He backed up looking at her surprised. Y/n looked at Chan who had his mouth half open and was about to say something.

Hyunjin looked at Chan with a raised eyebrow. "Who's she..?" Y/n felt tears come in her eyes and her heart stung with a sudden force of pain, was he joking?

Chan spoke up looking at Y/n. "Yeah, that's what I was going to tell you, the doctor said he...lost his memory. Apparently, he remembers us but we don't know how much memory he lost." Y/n slowly nods.

"Well who is she..?" Hyunjin asked again with his cold voice making Y/n feel more weak.

She spoke up trying to make her voice sound stable. "No one, I'm no one important."

Felix put his hand on Y/n's shoulder whispering her name to her in a sad tone but Hyunjin cut him off. "I thought so." He didn't sound like he meant it though. Those words hurt Y/n, he would have never said that if he had his memory.

He walked past Y/n with a cold glare, it made her feel weak, she couldn't compete with the same Hyunjin as before, not after what both of them had for each other. Seungming then spoke up. "Hyunjin, what was the last thing you remember before ending up in the hospital?"

Hyunjin stopped in his tracks not looking back. "All I remember is that we were planning on kidnapping..what was her name? Y/n? We needed that tracking device from her father." Saying Y/n's name coming from Hyunjin made her feel warm but he has no clue.

Changbin looked at Chan with a terrified look. "He lost his memory from five months ago?!"

Y/n then realised, he forgot everything that happened after they kidnapped her. He doesn't remember her.

"Five months?!" Hyunjin shouted, surprised himself. "Why? Was there something important that happened to me?"

All the members looked at Y/n, "We don't know, only you would really know if that something was important. But that's the problem we have here." Jisung said, placing his hand on Y/n's shoulder.

Hyunjin turns around with furrowed eyebrows looking at all of them. "How come the name Y/n sounds so familiar..?" He shook his head. Y/n herself couldn't believe that this really happened.

"That's because-" Felix spoke up but Y/n stopped him by whispering to him.

"There's no point. Don't tell him what happened in these past few months. It won't be the same because he won't remember those moments, let him live how he was supposed to, before I came." She whispered to him with her teary eyes.

Hyunjin approached the girl that was standing a few meters away from him. "Are you Y/n..?" His eyes had that cold look in them, like the first time she saw him. His eyes weren't soft looking anymore..

She slowly nods her head. He spoke up after licking his lips. "Well, anyone going to explain..? Actually don't bother, it won't feel the same because I wouldn't remember any moment that happened nor the feelings with it. Only if I get my memory back..somehow." It's like he stole the thought from inside of Y/n's head.

She thought of the exact same thing, it wouldn't feel the same.

"Is she staying here, or does she have her own place?" Hyunjin spoke again after the little pause looking at Chan.

"I have my own place." Y/n said, she tried her best to not sound weak and helpless but her actions were showing it.

"Okay then." He rolled his eyes going to his room.

"Y/n you sure you want to do this?" Chan asked her.

"Yeah, I'm sure, there wouldn't be any point of telling him if he can't remember all of that, only if his memory comes back." She let the first tear from her eyes roll down her cheek.

"I'm so sorry.." Chan said looking down.

Y/n said not to worry and slowly walked to her room to pack her stuff. Once she closed the door to her room she broke down and let all of her tears out remembering the memories she made and feeling the pain of being forgotten. She brought her knees close to her chest as she sat on the floor crying.

"I'm sorry." She whispered to herself.

a/n: Thank you guys so much for 2k+ reads, I'm so grateful and it really really means a lot to me. All you guys are so precious and I love youuuuuuu <3 I hope everything is going well for you.