staring at the stars ||dwt x reader||

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"so...that's what happened" i barried my face in my hands. "clay seemed upset i'm not sure why but he and nick went out for a breather" he sighed.

"george i fucked up" i said looking up at him with tears brimming at the bottom lid of my eyes.
"how? your-"
"me and clay had a thing george and i messed it up" i cried as i put my head on his chest.

"how long have you..."
"about 2 week i would say."
"oh-i i'm sure he will understand" george sighed

"understand what the facts that i gave another guy my number and that i made out with a whole other girl" i yelled at i threw my self back in pain.

"it's gunna be ok" george said
"george i'm s-scared.." i said shaking
"why"
"what if he turns out to be like jack or something like he hits me and grabs me because i did something wrong and-" george cut me off by grabbing my face gently.

"if i said it's gunna be ok it will be ok don't worry he's not going to be like jack and he's not going to hate you. trust me on that" he said whisper yelling while looking me straight in the eyes. i nodded.

"now get some rest and here's 2 pill if you need more come ask me" he said and walked out of my room and leaving me their.

i wanted to play some cod or gta but it wouldn't be good for my head right now. i heard the guys walk in and they sat on the couch and nick said "be right back" and i heard steps get closer to my door. and he opened it. i looked up at him and then looked back down. he came in and sat on my bed.

"it's ok" he said
i didn't say anything in response.

we sat in silence for about 30 more seconds until i broke it.

"are you upset"
"what"
"are you upset about me giving out my number or making out with someone else that's not you" i asked

"no why would-" he said looking at the floor
"nick..." he look up at me
"are you mad."
"i-i can't be mad."

"ok is clay mad?" i said while grabbing more Advil.
"kind of but he told me what you texted him so hers trying not to be" he sighed
"ok tell him i'm really fucking sorry i-i just am...i don't know i just need time."
"ok tell me if you need anything" he said and walked out.

i need to talk to someone i need to get out. i put my Advil in my mouth and swallowed them with water.

i put on sweats and one of clays hoodies and grab my keys and take a deep breath.

i walk out into the living room not making eye contact and close the front door when i walk out and get in my car.

i started driving and playing my music quietly. and i drive to and empty mcdonald's parking lot and sit their and just think.

why did i say let's go get drinks. i'm spending a moth with them and already fucked up and it hasn't even been a week. i decided to call karl and alex in a group call.

i call them hoping they answer.
"yeah?" i hear 2 voices faintly
i sigh in relief.

"ok you guys answered"
"yeah of course we did what's going on?" karl asked
"are you ok" alex asked
"um so let me just explain stuff that happened"

i explained everything in about 3 minutes

"and they said everything would be ok but i don't know me might be a jack and i-"
"no no no clays not gunna be a jack he could never he cares about people"

"yeah dream- i-i mean clay he's nice and you know that your just overthinking it." karl said trying to get me to stop thinking about it.

"yeah i mean i guess your right" i sighed

i went threw the drive threw while talking to them. we laughed and talked and i looked at the time.

"OMG"
"what" they both said sounding worried.

"uhh let's just say we've been talking for 2 hours and i'm too stupid to relies i have a lot of missed text and calls"
"ohhh that's who's phone was buzzing" alex said
"ohh makes sense" karl said.
"omg well i gotta go before they think i jumped off a bridge" i sighed
"ok bye kiara love you" karl and alex said
"byeee i love you guys too"

i pressed the red x on the bottom right on my phone and fell into a silence. soon after i arrived at the house. i took a deep breath and opened the door.

i didn't see anyone so i assumed they left and went somewhere i went into my room and as soon as i opened my door i felt arms wrap around my waist.

"i'm sorry" the voice said
"clay?" i question and he let go as i turned around "can you forgive me?" i questioned
he nodded

"i'm sorry for not talking to you about it...i was scared when you left the house and didn't come back i don't know what you could've done" he said hugging me.

"well i didn't do anything i just got mcdonald's and talked to karl and alex" i hugged him back.

"ok let's go cuddle"
"ok babes" i smiled

didn't get my phone taken:)

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