𝓢𝓽𝓾𝓹𝓲𝓭 𝓖𝓲𝓻𝓵!

C15 Forget me not

I face planted Into my bed, and as usual, I was super confused. I was hurt and a little angry at Severus for what he had done tonight. I placed my hand on the small mark he had left on my neck, it was still sensitive and it kept making me relive the moments in detention with him.  Then there was the whole thing with Jackson, who I would have to face soon enough. I couldn't hide from him forever. I watered my orchid plant and grabbed my sketch pad I had gotten from Severus, I doodled and let the time get away from me. Everyone would be at dinner right about now but I wasn't hungry, at least for food. I threw the pad on my bed and grabbed my shower stuff, I quickly made my way to the girl's bathroom, ready for a hot bath. I usually took showers but I ached and wanted to soak in the hot water. I walked into the doors and they shut behind me. I put my stuff down on the counter and ran the bath water. I slid off all my clothing and slid my hands down my naked sides. I stepped into the water and gradually I let my entire body sink beneath the surface. The temperature stung at first before my body got used to it. I held my breath and thought of Severus, of all our encounters. How he was driving me mental. literally. My throat burned and I came back up, gasping for air. I washed my hair and body, lathering the soap on, as if the water could make me pure. As if it could erase everything from today and the weeks before.

I scrubbed and scrubbed until I was satisfied I was clean. I drained the water and got out, grabbing my towel I started to dry myself off. I stared at myself in the mirror, my slender body to my dark hair. why me? I hid my face in my hands and groaned. Out of all the girls here at Hogwarts, hell out of all the girls out in the world why me? It wasn't that I regretted... Caring for him. I just couldn't understand why or how on his part really.

I got dressed in my pjs and scrubbed my teeth, I really needed to get some sleep. I gathered all my shower things after I was finished getting ready and left the girl's bathroom. Maybe a little bit of air would help before bed. I was on my way out when I ran into Jackson and Wednesday. They were walking together, talking. "Oh hey, guys." They stopped and looked at me, Jackson smiled and came up to me, placing a kiss on my cheek. "So... You're not wondering why I took off so quickly tonight?" He shook his head. "Well, you did say you had homework to finish. Then we had detention, not sure what else you took off from." My brows furrowed. "After I left Professor Snape's classroom I bumped into you and kinda just took off, so I'm sorry about that." I mumbled and he looked confused. "Sorry, maybe I took one too many hits at quidditch practice but I don't remember that at all." I was about to say something when I realized Snape must have done something to Jackson. "I... forgot something in the potions classroom, I'll see you guys later." I ran all the way to the potions class, Severus stood writing his lesson for tomorrow on the blackboard. I shut the door behind me and came closer. "What the hell did you do to Jackson?" Snape put down the chalk he was using to write and closed the book I had previously not seen in his other hand, he sat down at the desk and stared at me. "I did what was necessary to protect... Us. Don't worry he still remembers you. I just erased the part where he figured out that I gave you a hickey." He said with absolute grotesque. "You can't just go around messing with student's head's Severus! It's not right! It's not at all ok!" I put my left hand behind my head and grabbed my hair in frustration. "So you yourself wouldn't want to forget everything with me?" I was taken aback by what he said, dropping my hands to my sides after I put down the bath stuff on a table. ''No, I wouldn't. I want to remember..." I silently said but I knew he had heard me, he let out a deep sigh. "You'd be happier just being with Jackson, someone closer to your age. You'd be safer with him than with me. You wouldn't have to hide."

I crossed my arms not only at him but at the coldness that was evident in the room that was starting to make goosebumps go down my skin. Severus came closer and placed both hands on the sides of my face. He gently kissed me and I kissed him back, he broke it off abruptly. Something poked the side of my face and I slowly turned to see his wand at my temple. "Severus, no!" But it was too late. "Obliviate..." he said with dismal. I stood there for a moment, my head feeling cloudy. What was I doing here? I couldn't remember. "Ms. Black, I believe detention is over and you may go back to your common room.'' I confusingly nodded, I didn't understand how I had got here and it hurt to try to remember. I was also very confused as to why I was in my PJs. I grabbed my shower stuff and walked back to the girl's dorm. Wednesday walked over and placed both her hands on my shoulders. "Well? Are you going to tell me how you got that hickey because apparently, Jackson can't remember either?" I shrugged and looked into one of the mirrors. Did me and Jackson have a make-out session? We haven't even been on a date yet. "I can't remember either... I can't remember detention either." Wednesday looked at me, squinting her eyes. "Ok ok maybe you guys don't want to tell me but you still have your V card right?" She wiggled her eyebrows at me. "Of course I do. Everything is just foggy right now." I put my stuff away and sat on my bed. "Maybe I just need some sleep."

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Severus POV

I placed my wand to my temple and abstracted my own memories before placing them in a vile and handing them to Albus. "You'll make sure she gets it when the times right?" He nodded. "You didn't have to go about things the way you did, you know." I nodded my head slowly. "Yes, I did. I would have had to have done it anyway with the things that would soon come. She'd be in more danger at my side than anywhere else, let her change schools. There's Ilvermorny in America, she'd make an acceptable student at Beaubatons. Just keep her safe. I beg of you this time, keep this one safe." My heart was full of melancholy and grief for a great many things, she had dulled that pain and I felt different. I was being selfish and I let her go, secretly I wished she would return. I wished she would remember but it wouldn't happen. It never would have worked out anyway. ''Of course, I'll keep her safe but she's not going to want to leave. You know that.'' I nodded. I was so full of emotions by the time I sat on my bed I couldn't stand it. I started to trash my room. My bed sheets smelled like her, and my mind tormented me but I couldn't bring myself to forget her. I kept telling myself it was for her own good, her best chance but my mind kept telling me no. My chest hurt like she had ripped out my heart and taken it with her.