Hey..........Please dont hate me for not updating for so long. I promise that I would have if I had any idea where to pick it up. I couldn't get a sentence in that made me feel like it could create new chapter. But I think what I have now is ready to be released. I hope you enjoy this chapter!
"What the hell happened yesterday. I gave you your privacy and allowed you to sleep, but now it's time for some answers, Miss Girl!"
"Don't worry about it, just drop it." I shrugged, trying to shake her off my tail, but I knew it wasn't going to be simple. I was lying face up on my bunk, staring at the ceiling when she barged in.
All of my memories and pain came rushing back to me at the same time. The agony, terror, and horror of it all slammed into me like a truck. No amount of dreams will ever be enough to overcome the nightmares of the past, which linger in my mind like a fog over the good memories I once had.
"No, I'm not going to drop it! We were just assaulted at the mall by a man who seemed to recognize you, and when we got home, you just screamed at Colton and ran upstairs. So, Lydia, no! I'm not going to let it go!"
"I WAS RAPED BY HIM! FOR A YEAR, The MAN IN THE MALL RAPED ME! SO PLEASE FORGIVE ME IF I DO NOT WANT TO DISCUSS WHAT JUST HAPPENED!" As if I were swimming in the ocean with my eyes open, I screamed in her direction, tears burning my eyes.
"what" Sawyer said in the lowest of tones almost no loud enough to hear.
"The mall at the mall worked for my father and raped me for a year before I managed to flee. My bruises and change in mood went unnoticed, and he threatened to kill me if I told anyone." I said it with my head bowed, trying to keep the flood of tears from rushing out.
"He threatened to hurt Colton if I didn't stay away from him, which is why I yelled at Colton......to get him to stay away from me while he was angry."
"Lydia, I am so sorry. I never would have forced you to tell me if I knew and I'd do anything to help you get out of all that pain if I could," she said, hugging me like a child in need of protection."
"You can't tell Colton." I spoke solemnly to her without lifting my head
"I won't, but don't be too hard on him; he needs your help. You may not be able to see it, but he needs you, and you need him as well." Sawyer said, softly wiping my tears with her thumb as she lifted my head.
"OK," I said quietly as she helped me back to bed. The world around me goes black in a moment, and I fade into a distant world of darkness.
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Waking up wasn't any better than when I went to sleep. I felt empty and alone, trapped inside a body that I didn't want to have anymore. I sluggishly changed out of my old clothes and put on black sweatpants and an oversized One Direction T-shirt. Yes, I love One Direction sue me! I may be an assassin but I;m still a teenage girl.
As I looked in the mirror, I thought I looked like a train wreck. Even though I brushed my hair this morning, I had tear-streaked cheeks and red-rimmed eyes, and my hair looked like it hadn't been combed in days. As I walked out of my room and down the spiral staircase to the kitchen, I couldn't even muster the energy to care.
When I got to the bottom, I saw Theo and Colton sitting at the kitchen table, arguing about something I didn't care about, and Sailor watching Criminal Minds on TV. I walked right by them, not looking in their direction. Despite the fact that their eyes on my back felt like daggers to the body, I simply took a water bottle and went downstairs.
The basement had been transformed into a private training facility for Sailor and me, allowing us to exercise and fight in peace. I removed my shirt and changed into a sports bra and sweatpants before putting on my boxing gloves and hitting the punching bag as if my life depended on it.
My hands and knuckles were numb from the anger, terror, and hatred flowing out of my body onto the weighted bag of sand. Despite the fact that my body was gradually tiring and my mind was exhausted, I persisted, causing my body to almost shut down. I sat down and cried until my body collapsed to the floor on its own.
I cried, and cried, and cried. My past was preventing me from pursuing my goals, happiness, and responsibilities. But, no matter how hard I tried, it still came back to haunt me, reminding me of my powerlessness. One things always led to another.It started with Colton and Theo's days of torture, then a year of sexual assault, and now it's time to be emotionally and physically separated from the only people who can comfort me.
It felt like an eternity as I sat there, but somewhere in the midst of it all, I felt warm arms wrap around me in a protective embrace. You'd think I was a toddler if you cuddled and cradled me with such tenderness. I didn't have to look up or stop crying to figure out who it was. Their distinctive cologne fragrance and muscular arms told me who it was.
"Can you tell me whats wrong" he whispered into my ear making sure to be as comforting as he possibly could be.
"Please don't make me answer that."
"You don't have to tell me what happened but just know that I'm here to hold you through it." the comforting voice said causing vibrations in his chest.
"Does it ever stop hurting?" I asked through broken-up words due to the hyperventilating and tears
"No, you just learn how to make room for it," As I begin to relax, Colton says softly as he strokes my hair. I didn't want to leave this place. I felt completely at ease in his embrace as he simply hugged me. But, as I started to recall what I had been told hours before, life did not always give you what you want."
Stay away from Colton or he and your little friends die.
I start to pull my body away from his, wiping my tears from my eyes and giving myself a blank expressionless look. I can't give in now because his and others' lives are in danger. When his voice cut me off, I started leaving the room.
"Please don't go. Why are you doing this" He said it in a tone that was almost too gentle for the Colton I knew.
"I don't have a choice......I never have." said as I turned to return to my room and formulate a strategy for the upcoming troubling day.
Prom...
As a little girl, you grow up dreaming of the days where you get to grow up and get to wear those beautiful dresses surrounded by friends and danced the night away. But that just wasn't the case anymore for Lydia.
Tonight wasn't about entertainment or the enjoyment of being a teenager. It was about doing a job, a job she never wanted to do in the first place. She didn't ask for any of it. To be a murderer, live with her old bullies, or even exsist, but here she was, dressed in a ball gown worth more than a car, with and makeup covering all her insecurities that begged to peek through.
Lydia hadn't spoken to anyone in nearly 24 hours. It was a strategy she had learned in training: she could concentrate her mind entirely on one thing: protecting Colton, without saying anything.
"You look stunning" Sailor spoke softly to Lydia, not expecting but hoping for a response. She never got it, as she sighed as she walked down the stairwell to their colossal living room.
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