𝐂𝐈𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄 𝐁𝐔𝐓𝐓𝐒 {𝐦.𝐦.𝐫}

{ 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐩𝐢𝐝 }

Natalie yaxleys pov ;
                 "Hey, natt are you okay?" theo asks "dont call me that" i clintch my hands "dont mind theo mate" enzo throws his arms around me

I see him glance down at my knuckles, stopping for a moment untill theo cracks a joke

"You guys ready for this party" onyx smiles "yeah" i sigh walking into the common room, the vales were set

The whiskey and muggle-herm already set on the table

A few ravenclaws were already there

Maddie and a bandage on her nose, and astoria could barely make eye contact with me. Pathetic sluts.

"Come on lets get ready" pansy smiles walking up the steps "mm well" i shrug walking behind her

"I dont know about you guys, but all im wearing is a jacket and pants" i shrug "thats boring" onyx rolls her eyes

"Theres no reason to dress nice, this is the first party this year" i shrug staring down at my jacket

"Point taken" pansy frowns her brow, i slide the jacket over my shoulders, the smell of cigarette butts and mahogany oil

I take a deep wiff transfering the picture of me and mattheo from my jean jacket to my zipper on my sleeve

"I think its cute" pansy smiles "w-whats cute?" i frown my brow "you carry that picture everywhere" she smirks

"Well yeah, i mean who thought i would ever feel this way. He grew on me" i nod fixing my sleeve

"Mattheos honestly really lucky" onyx chuckles "how so" i frown my brow slipping on my boots

"You never, i mean never. Have opened up about your personal life to anyonr but me. And ive personally never seen you truely inlove" onyx chuckpes pulling her blouse over her head

"Like i said, he grew on me" i shrug

"You look badass" pansy snickers "you to" i smirk holding the door open for them

They both walk out, i follow behind them

"LETS GET THIS PARTY STARTED" lorenzo yells, then the music starts

People immediately start heading to the dance floor

"First shot of the day?"onyx smirks "no thanks, ill get a beer though" i point to the cooler next to draco

"Heads up" he throws it to me, i almost miss it

"Nice save" draco chuckles "nice throw" i chuckle back

I chug it down in two gulps

"Another" i flank draco to pass me another

"Catch" he snickers, i catch it right this time

"Yayy" he claps "shut it" i clink mines and pansys bottles together

"Ow" i sit up, my head pounds

"Morning" onyx chuckles "what happened" i rub my head

"wel um, after 3 bottlea of beer you finally agreed to take shots, then after shots muggle-herb and after muggle herdb, then you snorted some, um- white stuff" she shrugs

"Fuck, and non of you stopped me" i scoff "well pansy, she was caught up in theos grasp" she smirks "yuck, ew, yuck. I didnt need to know that" i cry, she chuckles

"What about you and blaise" i peer up to her, she points to the other couch, i see blaise and draco passed out on eachother with chicken sauce

"What happened to them" i chuckle "well um, they got super drunk and ate chicken wings together" she shrugs "i can imagine that" i smirk touching my face

"Ew what the" i glance down at the chicken sauce "oh god" i scoff peering down to my shirt "wheres my jacket?" i ask "i put it in the room to keep it safe" she smiles

"Merlins beard thank you" i sigh in releif "no problem" she chuckles "um i should probably go get cleaned up" i chuckle

"Oh and, astoria face planted onto the ground" she snickers "Shit" i scoff heading up to our dorm

Walking in i glance to my left, theo and pansy still sleeping half naked

"Lovely" i sigh heading to my bed

I unzip my sleeve pocket to make sure the picture was still there. It was, just a slittle crumpled

I hug the jacket, grabbing the cigarette butts out of the front pocket

"God im sorry" i sigh tucking the picture away with the cigarette butts

Journal entry 440. Date; 8/2/96
I know what people may think. Its dumb? Maybe stupid? I dont know, in the time me and mattheo have been around eachother hes grown on me, he knows what it feels like to well, have a pressuring father, keeping his cigarette butts in my pocket makes me remember the times we had. The countless times i reminded him he couldnt put them in my pocket. Not i regret it. I wish he did. I cant possibly forget how much we bonded. Who am i kidding it is stupid. All of this is stupid.
natalie k yaxley