This chapter is full of just deep conversations. I needed one last filler before next chapter.
This is also unedited because I can't ✨mentally handle✨ revising.
"And y'all just...stopped?"
Chase nodded, resting his head on Winter's shoulder. His eyes were glued on the TV, not paying any mind to anything else.
"Is he okay?"
"I think so, yeah, he hasn't said anything about it." Chase mumbled, his heart thumping quickly. The TV seemed distant. "I just feel bad cause I didn't mean to pressure him."
Winter patted Chase shoulder in a comforting manner. "I don't think you did, he maybe didn't realize what was happening until it hurt."
"Maybe yeah... I'll talk to him about it later today."
Winter nodded, looking back at the TV. Chase wanted to talk to Clyde, they haven't talked much since the other night.
Did I pressure him?
Is he okay?
Hurt?
Chase asked Clyde to next morning if he was okay and Clyde just nodded. Chase felt like he fucked up.
With a sigh, Chase grabbed his phone, texting Clyde.
Me- you okay cutie?
Clyde instantly responded, replying simply.
Clyde♡- yea
Me- Please tell me what's wrong. Did I pressure you? I swear I didn't mean to, please talk to me.
Clyde♡- you didn't pressure me pumpkin. i'm just... a bit off and overthinking.
Me- Is there anything I can do to help?
Clyde♡- ill tell u if there is... im gonna take a nap. ttyl 💕
"I think he hates me."
"Maybe he's just embarrassed?"
Chase shrugs, hoping that was the case. Hoping that he did nothing wrong to upset Clyde.
Does he want to break up?
Is that what he's overthinking about?
"You should call him later." Winter suggested, rubbing Chase's shoulder. "Just ask if he's embarrassed."
"I will, I will..."
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Chase went over to Clyde's house after Clyde woke up from his nap. He was groggy and slightly grumpy, but still smiled when he saw Chase.
"Are you embarrassed or something?"
Clyde shrugs as he continued making a sandwiches, Chase wondered if he's eaten today.
"Clyde, please, I'm not trying to pry but... talk to me."
The brunette puts the butter knife covered in jelly in the sink, not bothering to wash it. "It's really nothing."
"Am I doing anything wrong?"
"No, Chase, I promise."
Clyde squished the sandwich together, instantly taking a bite. He seemed to have gotten brighter within seconds from the food.
"Do you want anything to eat?" Chase shook his head, stroking Clyde's hair. "My parents are just never home and I hate being alone. Yes, I have a cat, but he hates me... And whenever they are home, they're sleeping or having sex... I've just been really, really upset about it lately."
Clyde took another bite of sandwich, swallowing the mush harshly. "They're only home for an hour when I get back from school... Then I don't see them until the next day after school... And I miss them. Or just someone taking care of me..."
Chase frowns, pressing a sweet kiss to Clyde's head. "I'm so sorry, have you talked to them about it?"
"They're too busy to talk to me!" Clyde blinks away tears, taking another bite. "I'm sorry, I'm just really tired and want cuddles."
Chase nodded, still scratching at Clyde's head in comfort. "After you eat, we can go cuddle and talk, okay?" Clyde sniffs, nodding. "Have you eaten today?"
"I am now... I've just been really down today." Clyde ate the last bite, balling up the paper towel. Chase stared at Clyde with concern. "I'm seriously okay, I'm just having an off day. I'm really glad you're here."
Chase only nods and sighed.
The two went to Clyde's room, cuddling. A few blankets covered them, it was cold of in the room and outside.
They were quiet but bother wanted to say something. Both opened their mouths for a second but would close it.
Their hearts were racing, they could hear it.
Clyde finally spoke to break the tension. "I'm really scared of sex, that's why I stopped."
Chase frowns. Not because of that, but because Clyde didn't tell him before they tried. "Why didn't you tell me before I suggested it?"
"Because I was really horny," Clyde admits with a blush. "And I thought I was ready... But I've been trying since 9th grade and... I always freak out right as we get started. Guys or girls."
Chase holds Clyde tighter, squeezing his eyes shut. "We don't have to do anything at all."
"I'm just always horny but I am so scared."
The dark haired boy nodded, kissing Clyde in assurance. "Do you mind if I ask why?"
Clyde crawled in top of Chase, their faces leveled. "I'm not exactly sure, just the thought of it freaks me out." Chase sighs and nodded. "We can do it, just... Maybe not all the way anytime soon. I'm fine with fooling around."
"I'm not going to do anything you don't want to do."
"Thank you... I honestly appreciate it. Usually when I tell people, they break up with me. I think that's why I didn't tell you before."
Their eyes met in the room, Clyde had such gorgeous, chocolate colored eyes.
"I don't mind at all, I just want you to be happy and comfortable."
"Thank you, Pumpkin." Clyde pursed his lips, stroking Chase's cheek softly. "Are you doing okay?"
"Yes."
Clyde bit his lip, trailing his hand down Chase's arm, towards his hands "You sure? You haven't...?"
Chase let out a sigh, he knew Clyde meant well, he's just caring. He just hoped he's not going to be up his ass now, as much as he lived the care.
"I'm sorry, I just want you to be okay..."
"I know, I'm okay, Clyde." Chase assured heavily, kissing his lips softly. Sweetly. Kindly. "You know I'm always gonna be here for you, no matter what."
Clyde smiled. A sweet, genuine smile. His eyes lit up, the words meant so much to him for some reason.
"Thank you so much."
They cuddled for maybe an hour or more. Chase dozed off a bit, Clyde would give gentle kisses to keep him up.
Two didn't talk much, just hold each other, maybe whispering soft, loving phrases. Exchange sweet words and kisses.
It was so nice.
Chase loved it.
He really, really liked Clyde. And everything about him. His hair and eyes and personality, just every single fucking thing.
And Chase didn't realize that he was slowly but surely falling in love with Clyde.
The adorable, chestnut haired boy that he's known for most of his life.
SoRrY iTs ShOrT-
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